the boys who break girls hearts.

TRAPPED IN A CYCLE OF HIS EMOTION. ONE MINUTE HE DETACHES THE NEXT HE F*****G WANTS ME. WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF? THIS IS SUCH A WASTE OF MY EMOTION. WHY LIVE WITH THIS MAN WHEN HE NO LONGER SHOWS ME HIS TRUE FORM. HE HIDES HIS EYES AND STICKS ME WITH THORNS THAT BLEED HATRED. HATRED I CAN NO LONGER FIX. HE TANGELS ME INTO HIS WEB AND THEN RELAEASES ME AGAIN. THIS TEMPORARY INSANITY LEADS US TO DAMAGE EACHHOTHER ONCE MORE. YOU SEE ME WRITING THIS AND HE IS PONDERING HIMSELF. NO LONGER AM I A SWEETNESS TO HIM. JUST A FORTRESS OF HIS MISUNDERSTANDING AND WEAKNESS. HE HAS GIVEN UP ON THE FACT I AM NO LONGER ALLURING TO HIM. NO LONGER AS BEAUTIFUL. DAMAGED. BROKEN. MISGUIDED. DISCONNECTED. WHERE I BLEED IS WHERE HE RUNS. I BLEED MISTRUST, HE STEPS FURTHER FROM MY LOVE. RUNS AWAY SO I CAN’T HAVE HIM IN MY MIND ANY LONGER. ONCE THEY BREAK YOU THEY DON’T TAKE YOU. ONCE THEY MAKE YOU THEY WANT TO REPLACE YOU. MY TEARS FALL LUSTFULLY BUBBLING UNDERNEATH MY THROAT. I CANT SMILE ANY LONGER. I CANT FEEL ANY LONGER. ALL I HAVE IS SADNESS IN MY MIND. HE TOOK MY LIFE AWAY. STASHED IT IN A BOX AND LET THE DUST ROT ABOVE IT. NO LONGER AM I HIS DREAM GIRL. JUST AN IMAGE OF THE PAST. OF WHAT WE WERE WHEN WE FIRST KISSED. JUST A LINGERING MEMORY BENEATH HIS EYES, GAZING FORWARD. NEVER LOOKING BACK TO WHERE WE ONCE STOOD. HE WANTS ME TO GO WILD WHILE HE FORGETS ME. DISTANT AND COLD. WASHED AWAY BY THE AIR. I AM NO LONGER HIS LOVER. I KNOW HE IS WAITING FOR A  BOX TO FILL HIS HEART ANEW.  A NEW GIRL WITH MORE TO GIVE AND MORE TO SUFFER. 

Author's Note

just a venting . when men shun the girls they love. they create black holes within us.

Reviews

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going from my writing to yours, i can see the same thing... I relate so much and its incredible how someone can put my thoughts into their words with no previous knowledge. Being thrown out and reeled back in like an animal on a leash