animal

my body is a cage

and i,

the rabid animal.

i am reckless, 

and dangerous,

helpless in my need

to destroy everything about myself.

i do not deserve

to feel whole anymore.

my claws are sharpened,

from the steel bars

holding me hostage,

and i can taste

my anticipation to be set free.

everyone knows,

not to engage a wounded animal

and still you tried,

believing that in my desparation

to scratch at myself,

i would not bring the same harm to you.

but i am a monster

and monsters do not understand

that humans

are not invincible,

that they bleed, and bruise, and tear

that they are utterly breakable

and i did not realize

the damage i had caused,

until you were more battered

than i was.

everyone knows,

not to trust a wild animal,

and yet you trusted me.

i did not know how to hande that,

so i manipulated your truths

and pitted you against me

in a sad excuse

to protect myself,

even when you were

the only person who ever really believed in me.

my grief made me

uncontrollable,

with barely contained rage,

and you were there,

to soothe me,

"to help you," you'd whisper,

your breath ghosting the back of my neck

and it was then

that i realized

i didn't want to hurt you anymore,

so i turned my greatest weapon

on myself.

because,

i'd rather spend a thousand years,

tearing at my own seams,

then spend another moment

untying

a single one of yours

Reviews

[Kai Rollins]

And so. You allowed them inside. Lovely

and monsters do not understand
that humans
are not invincible

I especially enjoyed that line. Thanks for the read.