Abused

I was molested by my dad's best friend when I was 9! i am 21 and the pain is still the same

Vile, revolting hands
that touched me.
Something as small as a shoulder-tap
felt as icky as if the grubby hands
had touched where a swimsuit should cover.

Harsh, degrading words
that cut as deep as any razor I'd used
to try and get rid of the feeling;
the dirty, worthless feeling.

Disgusting, glittering eyes
that greedily tried to eat me up
while pinning me down.
I felt naked while fully clothed.

Horrible, ugly face
that I had to see each day,
and that spit on me once or twice
when I walked by.

These haunting, creeping memories
have suddenly begun to crawl out of the grave
where I'd buried them years ago.
I thought the past was gone,
but I guess I was wrong.

Reviews

[soliloquy]

Whoa.....this one kinda shook me. This is different in its gripping intense realism....

And so very sad and aweful too....(content)

[write4ever]

thanks it was very hard to write! I am now engaged to my wonderful boyfriend and I have never been happier!

[soliloquy]

Oh thank god...... I'm glad to hear that. :0). I hope you can learn the fact that it was NOT your fault. You didn't cause that.

[write4ever]

i blambed myself for a LONG time but my fiance is ALWAYS telling me that it is NOT my fault @ all!

[soliloquy]

it wasn't. There are a lot of sick people around. You just happened to be near.

Please try to understand that.

[write4ever]

i will! thank you very much for your sweet words :-)

[soliloquy]

No problem at all. :0) I have the feeling you will be fine.

[write4ever]

yes i will thank you very much for your kind words and friendship

[soliloquy]

Dont let the b*****d win....... Know what i mean?

[write4ever]

yup!

[soliloquy]

Hey.....i hope your week is going good?

[write4ever]

yeah it's going well, thanks! how are you doing?

[Kaylor Mason]

No matter how much counseling you ever have, nightmares of this sort are always vicious b******s within the human mind

[write4ever]

i will NEVER forget, but I will NOT be weak and think of myself as the victim!

[Kaylor Mason]

Good.

[write4ever]

thank you!

[Jetta Zippora]

Wow. Emotionally killer write. Sad but serious passion. Beautiful write, friend.

[write4ever]

thank you!

[Patient Poet (Yos)]

written to a friend , this is for you :

http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/yosmos100/515007/

[Mr Dunne Poetry]

Wow, this is so powerful yet so sad :(

[write4ever]

thanks!!! writing is my one release!!!!

[Mr Dunne Poetry]

You are more than welcome. You are very good at it too :)

[write4ever]

i am going to submit LOTS of erotica!!! :-)

[Adrian X Fuentess]

This hits close to home. It's an amazing poem. Worded out well, and the imagery man!

[write4ever]

thank you very much!!!!

[That_Guy]

very real imagery is used here, such a terrible experience though...

[write4ever]

thanks Jon! I thought about killing myself, but i have nieces and nephews who need their "Auntie Tiffany"

[That_Guy]

I have a niece who's done the same for me

[write4ever]

what is your niece's name?