"Not enough"

This is just my way of getting out the feelings I have about not being good enough in anything I do.

I'm not enough or so it seems

I'm everyone to everybody

Outside it looks like I am so lucky

But inside are the things no one sees

I'm not enough at home

Clothes and dished piled up

Trying to love my kids the best I can

But it's not enough 

There's always something undone

I try to be more than enough for one person

Always on my toes

Wanting to say and do the right things

So he doesnt have to say the things that hurt me

Put tears in my eyes and hurt on my heart

The pain sometimes tears me apart

I try to be enough but it never works

Somedays I just want to give up

I don't clean enough, I'm too strict on the kids

I just want to make everyone happy

And it's still not enough because I still hear those words

That stay in the back of my mind

They remind me of what I need to do better

But I'm still not enough until everything's right.

 

 

Author's Note

What do you think?