The Golden Years

I woke this morning,well around ten

i laid in the bed for a few minutes

before i tried to get up and get going

i sat on the side of my bed letting the blood

run to my feet

I struggle to get up and make it to the bathroom

i go to the desk and get out my pill holder

i take about 14 in the morning to get me started

i go to the kitchen and make a pot of coffee

while the coffee is making i feed the cat

then i rake up last nites scraps and feed the dog

i take my shower at night,i rinse my mouth with mouth wash

put in my teeth and go get my coffee

Check my e mails and phone messages check the calendar

to see if i have a doctors appointment,if i dont i get ready for work

i wish i could retire but i don`t draw enough social security

and i`m still waiting on the v a`s decision for my compensation

well it`s only been two years since i applied

i guess there busy with others like mine

vietnam 1969,i can still smell the dying flesh

i have a lot of bad memories ,hell we all do

When i work it wares me out,i have to rest a lot

i don`t take care of my self as i should,i have trouble sleeping

wake up at night seeing people in my room.i am used to it though

sometimes it scares me and i jump up to fight,but no one is there

they call it p t s d

I get mad at the drop of the hat,

sometimes i say things without thinking.but that don`t mean i`m sorry

the golden years,yeah right,i hardly see my family

and rare to catch a word with a friend ,don`t have  time between doctors and working you know,

They want to replace my knee but i wont let them

i`ve had 3 heart attacks,chronic kidney disease,border line diabetic what ever that means,pain in my toes and feet .my left knee is shot and the right one

well on it`s way.chronic artery disease ,chronic ptsd ,depression ,acid reflus,sleep apnehia ,loss of hearing ,poor eye sight,and oh yes, a heart murmur ...

The golden years,just waiting on god

Reviews

[sereenaoutloud]

Oh wow Ron this just hit so hard. Thank you for your service, for your sacrifice so people like us and my children have a safe place to rest our heads!! No one every can say it enough, what you all go through to keep "our freedom" is beyond any thank you i could ever give!

[wordman]

thank you very much,it wasn`t about me sereena

[sereenaoutloud]

sorry you wrote it so well.. with such feeling it felt like it was a personal write ! :)

[wordman]

lol i dont have false teeth,yet

[sereenaoutloud]

LOL...too funny :))

[wordman]

you know i`m the w/c clown

[sereenaoutloud]

yes you are for sure...always make me laugh anyways....oh accept for your writing..you had me crying twice lol

[wordman]

i can bring them tear jerkers,

[sereenaoutloud]

yes you can. STOP IT...heheheh need to keep my box of kleenex by me when i read your writes to catch all the tears!!

[wordman]

oh! i`m not that good

[Valentine]

If true, I am sorry. It seems many military are being neglected. It takes 2 years for SS disability when you have to go to court. At least when you do get it, they back pay you til the day you applied. Pray that is true in your case. Prayers going to you. Valentine

[wordman]

mostly about my neighbor,did apply for my v a it has been two years hired a avocate
thanks for the visit

[Valentine]

Welcome.. Hope you get it soon.

[Pushkar Prabhat]

boy i am going the wrong way.....
this a very scary picture of the golden years.......
very moving poem Sir......
:)

[wordman]

but it is so true for a lot of people,thank you for the visit

[Pushkar Prabhat]

and that is a sad sad reality......

[Woody]

boy what a grim and scary picture you painted, wordman! but stark and realistic.
it's so well done that I'm having second thoughts about going into this golden age.

[wordman]

hell woody after i wrote it ,it kinda scared me

[Woody]

haha you're funny. well that's our lot. let's make the best of it. sit on the couch, watch plenty of soaps, fart to our heart's content.

[wordman]

dam woody lets get out and flirt and dance and pour back a few
maybe we`ll get lucky and die having sex

[Woody]

you mean let's profit while the going is good? yeah let's and hope to come and go, so to speak :)

[Pryde Foltz]

That last line really gets you … what we expect some of us to bear … here's to a day without war. Excellent write, Ron.

BTW … I just posted a new one:)

[wordman]

thank you,i will read