Hello Stranger

A few months ago, after moving in with my fiance, one of my exboyfriends dropped by randomly wanting to talk...

You came out of nowhere

I was unprepared

My defenses were up,

But from underneath you appeared.

 

How could you act the same?

Be the same arrogant snake you were?

I remember when that attitude captivated me

But now it infuriates my very being.

 

I stayed calmed, I played nice

Did every polite thing I should have...

But deep down, my rage growled

Begging to be released.

 

My mouth said only pleasant things

Oh how it wished to say what I wanted

I needed to lash out, and yet

I let you walk away...

 

I trusted you, I loved you.

Entrusted to you was my heart to keep.

I bailed you out, I gave everthying.

Penniless I was left, but still I helped you.

 

I was there when no one else was,

How many times did you comfort me?

Told me I was safe and banished my fears?

It was all an act.

 

When the time came for me to need you,

I thought you'd be my anchor.

Oh, you were, but instead of help

You drowned me in sorrow and shame.

 

Like a candle blown out,

Suddenly you wanted something else.

I wasn't "the one" anymore,

I was just another burden.

 

How could you? I was devestated.

Everything that was me had been given,

There was nothing left. You took me

And simply threw me away...

 

Into exile I was sent,

All communication slowed til it vanished.

How I cried and begged and screamed....

Those nights I had no life left.

 

But time has past, I'm better now.

Out of that despair I finally arose.

My wings reopened, reformed, my heart healed,

And you were forgotten.

 

Now, here you stand,

The same attitude I once knew.

You want to be friends again, to be close,

Assuming I'd still be in love.

 

As far as your concerned,

Nothing ever happened.

That I'm to blame for losing touch,

And that you've still been looking out for me.

 

How little you know of me,

You didn't notice the change in my eyes.

I'm not that broken little puppy anymore,

This wolf has grown up.

 

My fangs ached for his throat,

Claws itching to sink into his flesh.

I yearned to make him feel my pain,

He needed to be affected as well.

 

For him to know the feelings

Of what I had to endure, just to

Wipe that smug little smirk off his face,

And make him taste my bitter anguish.

 

Only one thing saved him,

The thing that kept the howls silenced,

The reason he still breathes at this moment,

And why I'm sitting here smiling...

 

Sure, I could've shown him things,

But deep down I knew it wouldn't have made a difference.

If I had sunk that low of a level, I would

Be no better than he.

 

Besides, he was still in his own little world,

A world I had risen above and beyond.

He had no more power over me,

I had reclaimed my life.

 

Now, I had things to be proud of,

Stuff I was working towards achieving.

And now, I even was with someone who cared,

A real man instead of illusions.

 

So yes, I let you walk away.

The better person prevailed.

Go back and frolick in your blissful ignorance.

My destiny is calling, and you are forgotten once more.

Author's Note

Well, I wrote this is kind of a rage, so don't expect it to make any sort of grammatical sense...but still any opinions please feel free to provide.