I felt I needed to be someone.

I feel I need to crash and break down.
I feel I am in the ocean and I need to let go.. I need to drown.
I feel I need to show you I have nothing to offer.
I feel I need to complain and show you I am softer.
I feel I need to become dirt and ignore goals.
I feel I need to sell out and sell you my soul.
I feel I need to reach rock bottom and suffer.
I feel a lot of things are going to get a lot tougher.
I feel I need to disobey and break the rules.
I feel I need to be the robber and for once you will be the fool.
I feel I need to be alone and in a phase of destruction.
I feel I need to start a new life and get a new introduction.
I feel I have burnt all my bridges now and I have no more roads.
I feel I have to fix everything before I explode.

I felt I needed to change to see how hard it gets.
I felt I needed to build my life around regrets.
I felt I needed to hit rock bottom to see what happy is.
I felt I needed to be treated like s**t in order to be his.
I felt I needed to be uncomfortable and depressed.
I felt I needed to be anxious and stressed.
I felt I needed to sin in order to fit in.
I felt I needed to constantly lose, If I wanted to ever win.
I felt I needed to tell myself I am ugly to become pretty.
I felt I needed to to be a jackass to become witty.
I felt I needed to smoke a lot to become cool.
I felt I needed to drink a lot to show that I can break the rules.


but in the end I had a feeling that I would be someone.