Happy Birthday to Me

Its that time of the year
When I grow a year older
Expected to ACT more matured, wiser & bolder

But why I ask
Living up to this life itself is a task

I have enough roles to play already
A son, a rider, a friend, a non romantic & an employee

I try my best to keep up
I'm not a good juggler
And a role after the other I drop

Not like I enjoy hurting the parents or the friends
But every time I try to mend I just leave a few more dents

Don't know how life has turned out this way
I often ask myself this question when in my bed I lay
As usual a blank, no answer even today

When I was younger
I always thought that life would make more sense
It would be a little more sounder
But now I'm stuck in a concrete jungle dense

Its not as funny as it may sound
Love this year I have lost and now very recently found
But NO I'm just going to lay low and hit the ground
She still dose not know about how I feel
I'm just going to freeze my heart as hard as steel
Keep my feelings locked up in the darkest corner of my heart
And away from her I'm going to fly like a misfired dart

Hope the years to come are not harsh as the ones gone by
Hope the time just dose not fly by
Hope my mind lets my heart be
Hope I grow out of this the next time its happy birthday to me