Scared for Life

Scared for Life

 

 

By Windstorm Kells ©2001

 

Why?

 

What demons possessed you to harm mother and me like you did?

You damaged that little kid

Who always called you dad?

And always thought you could do no bad

 

My emotions put into jars

Hoping to withstand and have no scars

Placing those jars on a mental shelf

But wishing I’d rather be anybody but myself

 

At long last those jars boiled over

The experience was like a raging, torrent river

I felt trite and emotional dumb

Because I forgot all other emotions except anger-

Which made me feel numb

 

I attempted to harm you, as you did me

Which was like a trying to get back at you spree

But I learned this was wrong and cost me dearly

As I begin to see clearly

 

Of the many scars I carry, most are unseen

Some are like a mask you wear at Halloween

Some make me seem emotionally cold

Others just make me feel old

 

I won’t allow you to ruin my life anymore

Because I am in control and I choose life before

I choose hatred of you

I want to live and work on my own clue

For a life I want to be true

 

 

Reviews

[Christopher 'Windstorm'..]

since this was written i have come back into contact with my father and hopefully will mend some of that cosmic BS that tore us appart