Purpose ???

Purpose ???

 

By Windstorm Kells©2006

 

What is my purpose in life?

What am I meant to do?

Dwelling in fear and loathing

Waking each day wondering what could I become?

Alone yet, accepted

I fail to see what good, what purpose

Why I wake

Frail heart treading upon a knife of sanity

Lost in madness, insecurity

Pain the only ideal reinforcements seen

Falling deeper into the void of misery

Displaced, displeased

Yet, why do I wake?

Chipping thru my mind seeing no end butt,

Loneliness

Why? Why? Why?

Shattering world, nothing to live for

Yet, I wake to do it again

To pound smooth the corridors of my mind

To walk in endless circles of my insane cage

What hope do I gain from killing myself?

From the inside out or outside in

Hopeless, witless, crying for shattered dreams

Nothingness

Vast voids of emptiness

Bleak

Yet, again I wake

Meager happiness sought after

Some found for brief seconds of a beating heart

Yet, gone the next

From day to day wanting pleasure now

Yet, finding little in the things I do

Why must I wake into this heartless world one more time?

A struggle to start

Becoming harder and harder

Yet, I wake one more time

Nothing I do seems to really matter

Blather, wandering, hopeless

What is the purpose I’m here?