Bonding

Assembling the libidinous accouterments
Exhausts me, as I gird myself
To go downtown
Amid the flak and flagellations
Of bus and train and shoes-on-bricks.
Delay, delay, there's been a delay.
What chemical infusion
Might pause the clock, already ticking?
A coffee, cold, decaffeinated.
Hidden away beneath the layers
Of public sheathing, I'm aglow;
Anticipation nearly prematurely
Ignites the peevish arsenal,
The tremulous nitro jellyjam
Needed to detonate desires
Long repressed, a thermoblast
To cat-whomp nucleonic forces,
Overcome the core repulsions,
Strip defenses, interlock,
To fuse me with another.

A dip in energy
Threatens the synchronized convulsion.
Say no to lethargy: engage,
Electrify, and surge
Before a boarder
Rings the building's concierge.

You know me? Huh?
From where, and what, and how?
Won't answer? I refuse to bow
To paranoia.
You first, stranger. Secret agent,
Portable prop kit, clever disguises,
Wigs and makeup. Is that hair yours?
Here, let me grab it, tug it hard.
It doesn't budge, it might be real,
Or just another stinking trick.

Homeward, the hellbound gliding stairway
Screeches out a stinging torch song,
Sings a keen-psalm in my ears,
Chafes my hyperactive brain cells.
Wires--a-tangle,
Nerves--a-tingle, fried and frazzled;
What happened in that mystic's cave
To disable timers, triggers, charge,
Reduce me to a pile of ash
Drenched in the weeps of despondency?
Without a bang,
The work's undone.