a feeling of Being Alive

please listen to the short audio the link is below.

Blending in and pretending to be someone

It's been my life for years

I'm just a killing machine for hire

Running and hiding seems to be the right thing to do

It was a failed tasked yet I felt relieved

That will be my last task

To start a new life will be hard

A lot of people now are looking for me

Especially my boss that I must avoid at all cost

Why must I leave it unfinished?

Why must I feel this unknown feeling towards my target?

Why does it have to be you?

It's the first time I felt alive, that I'm not just a machine anymore

Like everything and everyone matters

To you I'm just a human being looking for someone to love and care for

My enemies have come

I'll do my best to stay alive for one day I will see you again

Hoping that you'll be well and happy in your own life

They are coming at the rear view of my car mirror

Two cars have approached

One in the left and other in the right side

Seems like I can't escape these two

Now we are in the middle of the road

We were too busy challenging each other

That all of us didn't see the truck fast approaching

It's too late to avoid

One of us was stuck big time by the truck

The other crushed to the road side railing

And me I manage to avoid the big truck

But I went straight off the cliff

Memories flashes fast

I just wish for the last time I could be able to see you

Even just a glance of your face to remember

Why am I so far for just a glimpse of you?

I'm falling to my doom

A payment for all the bad deeds I've done

Goodbye my special someone

_________________________________________

Why did you run away from me?

Why did you do that?

I want to know why?

My past had bound us together

Each time I had spend with you was a lifetime of joy to me

Now that I have found you, yet you're like this

Even so I will never let you go this time

Long months had passed and still you're asleep

Please wake up

I always pray to God that someday you will wake up

And spend eternity with me

I've taken care of the people that have hurt you

You don't have to worry for your safety now

I will protect you

I'm rich and powerful now

I don't have to work many hours just to pay my fees

Even you, we could live anyway we wanted

We can start a new chapter in our lives, leaving the past behind us

You don't have to do the dirty deeds of other people who only want power

If it wasn't for you I will never take this new found power

My tears had no use to you when you're like this

Your hand is so warm yet cold for being so unresponsive

I miss you

Please come back to me

Author's Note

To celebrate my birthday today I'm gonna post this, i was really happy when someone featured it and read a few lines of my poem.
please listen to this:
A short audio
its really amazing, he narrate it with such emotion the way i wrote it.
and by this i was able to create a little book of peotry
called Lost Memory

Reviews

[Katherine Enma Pineappl..]

Didn't know about the birthday so I'll first start by saying happy VERY LATE birthday kuya. I'm sorry but I was kind of lost at first maybe cause of this headache but later on your writing caught me. This short lovely tale is amazing as I love anything like this, the feeling of being alive :)

Love the write

[Pax]

Yup, i posted it in celebration for my bday, because the poem meant something to me. thanks my friend, i hope you enjoyed the short audio as well..

[Katherine Enma Pineapple]

I did, clicked the link almost immediately after the author's note. The guy really did a nice way of narrating it :) BTW that's a nice unique way of celebrating your birthday :)

[Pax]

thanks..im glad to know that you've like the audio also...

[♪The Girl Next Do..]

Very good. Filled with so much emotion-longing, feeling helpless, sadness, and each one is so strong, this poem nearly brings me to tears. Excellent.

[Pax]

thanks,i really want to recommend the short audio,

http://deviantliterature.tumblr.com/post/17950240130/a-feeling-of-being-alive-by-willyampax-read

its really amazing, someone narrate it with such emotion the way i wrote it.

[khalid]

first happy birthday and i hope all your wishes come true by your next birthday. second, congratulations for the poetry book. i liked the poem in shape and content

[Pax]

thanks,i really want to recommend the short audio,

http://deviantliterature.tumblr.com/post/17950240130/a-feeling-of-being-alive-by-willyampax-read

its really amazing, someone narrate it with such emotion the way i wrote it.

[eeoopig]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Hope you've had a great day :D

This is a beautiful poem, and tells a great story. The last lines make it just that much more beautiful and ends it well. Good work :)

[Pax]

thanks,i really want to recommend the short audio,

http://deviantliterature.tumblr.com/post/17950240130/a-feeling-of-being-alive-by-willyampax-read

its really amazing, someone narrate it with such emotion the way i wrote it.

[afra]

good work ...and happy birthday

[Pax]

thanks,i really want to recommend the short audio,

http://deviantliterature.tumblr.com/post/17950240130/a-feeling-of-being-alive-by-willyampax-read

its really amazing, someone narrate it with such emotion the way i wrote it.

[Wondering Mind]

The emotion cries in this one...Happy Birthday once again, and well done!

[Pax]

thanks,i really want to recommend the short audio,

http://deviantliterature.tumblr.com/post/17950240130/a-feeling-of-being-alive-by-willyampax-read

its really amazing, someone narrate it with such emotion the way i wrote it.

[Laura Maidah]

HAPPY BDAY! You're one year closer to death. Lol.

"That will be my last task
To start a new life will be hard" Is kind of the implicit crux of the poem. You might want to opt out of it altogether. It's MARVELOUS otherwise. You have a knack for emotion-driven content.

[Pax]

thanks for the recommendation but i can't opt it out for the fact that its part of the short audio record, thank you so much your reviews are really hopeful for someone like me.

[Laura Maidah]

np

[Coyote Poetry]

A beautiful plead for someone. I like the description and the desire in the poem.
"I'm just a killing machine for hire
Running and hiding seems to be the right thing to do"
I like the ending to the excellent poem.
Coyote

[Pax]

thanks,i really want to recommend the short audio,

http://deviantliterature.tumblr.com/post/17950240130/a-feeling-of-being-alive-by-willyampax-read

its really amazing, someone narrate it with such emotion the way i wrote it.