Chapter 3: Overflowing of emotions

Mr. Bones thoughts after the rhythm of passion the image is illustrated by my Friend ~ poetic pondering of Bone

Wide awake, lost in the ocean of thoughts.
Questions flooded me like streams in river beds.
Drown in the overflowing of emotions.

Why did you give in?
Why me of all people?
Am I that special?
I know I'm special to you, because I'm your best friend.
We've been friends, since when?
Since when we were in middle school.
Since then we've been friends in bond.
But is it enough to give in?
To give your ever first time to me.
I do love you as a friend.
Now I don't know anymore.
Confuse of what had happened.
Are you really that dumb?
Or am I that stupid to ask that question?
Did we do this out of need and not out of love?
Or you did this out of pity in my situation?
I am really that miserable, jobless, and penniless.
I feel horrible, stupid, and wasting my time to nothingness.
That's my life now.
I've drunk my last bottle today.
My last drink paid with my last penny inside my ragged blue jeans.
I never imagine our friendship will end up like this.
Yet it happened anyways.
You're the best friend I need in times of problems.
You always come when needed.
You're just a text away, even distance away.

I didn't see you for quite sometime now.
This is a foreign country yet you were able to find me in no time.
Rio, such a beautiful country with beaches and drinks are just arms reach.
I just texted you the other day out of loneliness and in need of company.
I didn't expect you will come the next day.
I'm not even sure I texted you the address yet I know you, you're a very resourceful and smart person.
Like you said when money  talks, there is surely a way.
I can't blame you for saying that.
We both know we were born with silver spoons in our mouth.
But you were the lucky one.
You still have your parents.
I was the damage one.
Still you were there to support.
From then on we strive for a better future.
You, for your booming company.
Me, for my brother and our struggling company.
Years had passed.
Our Company had gone stable.
So we don't need much effort not like before.
Still we support each others Company.
We did our best to out-stand each others.
We did it for fun, not for the Company itself.

Surely you think I'm stupid and idiot to leave all the fortune to my brother.
Leaving a little amount of money in hand, now totally vanish in the fabrics of alcohol.
I lied to my brother that I have a job here.
In truth I was just giving myself space.
Yet there is too much space, so much emptiness that I feel suffocated.
Maybe I'm just lonesome in need of someone.
That's why I texted you.
You were always the one who understand me for everything I am.

Author's Note

the image is illustrated by my friend tricia
so this is Mr. Bone's thoughts.

Reviews

[Sugar Plum ♥]

Great illustrartion! and great writing too, I loved reading it, his inner thoughts develop and his struggle will bring him to the right path, hopefully! He is so blind to not understand his friends love until now. how she could go to him without 'loving' him all this way, even it`s confusing now, as she went so far away...maybe was her intention since long! she wanted him first, but she didn`t have chance to show that love...so i continue thinking about life in your great work, Pax!

[Pax]

wow...Its made you think about life as well... that's great... oh i'm loving your views my dear friend...

[Dhaye]

Nice Chapter :)

[Pax]

yehey ~ naka pasa ako sa edition ko ~ thanks kabayan ~

[Dhaye]

Tuwang-tuwa ang bata, oh. Lol. :)

[Pax]

naman kasi ilang besis ko kaya yan na edit...salamat talaga kabayan~

[Corset]

yep, here come the questions, lololol..you are portraying these emotions perfectly! What a great novelist you are! okok..reading on, I love the confessional diary feel of this..

[Pax]

oh.. I'm so glad you continue on... I'm so happy your enjoying the ride here..

[Shep]

Normally I don't reveiw poetry. Not that don't like it its just because there is so much of it here on this site. You always seemed to have away with words that tear the soul in so many pieces. Thatswhat like most about poetry it lt let's me know who are inside. Sometimes it is hard finding that person heat as the mask the feelings. But you I know the heart and the soul behind it. It speaks to me with such passion I can barely contain it. Awesome write and truely mean it or I wouldn't say it.

[Pax]

thank you shep, im glad you like this chapter, the emotions is there right like a poem does. I really appreciate you reading this.

[AK]

Another brilliant poem! Loved it! The picture was amazing:)) greta flow. Keep writing!

[Coyote Poetry]

A very strong chapter. I like the internal thoughts and struggle in the chapter. I like the history of the families companies. No weakness in the outstanding chapter.
Coyote