Indecisiveness

 

Indecisiveness

            enough as it is,

I stay in the confines of my comfort,

choices I begun to prolong.

Waiting for something

probably won’t come.

 

I walk back and forth,

And climbing ladders  

              - up and down,

      an unchanging routine

   draining the life-force

        of my pretend smile.

Sluggishly the plot-holes

       starts to appear

   messing the careful laid-out script

                I master to act.

Barriers starts to crack, little by little

I gather the courage

   to put the imaginary duck-tape

   to hold them together

        a little while longer

until the final choice, is made sure

without hesitation and fear.

 

Author's Note

credits goes to google images search.


i dunno what to say, other than what this piece represent. sorry for not being around much... another one of my raw pieces, taken from the present emotions that is weighing me down lately...

I am starting to put this piece to rest now, I have made my final decision from the long hold of Indecisiveness I felt for the past several weeks or even months. I am quitting my work here in Saudi, and plan to go home this January 2015, back to the Philippines for many months of rest for a time. For three years I've stayed here in this country, it's quite good but the management who handles my employment is really terrible, I can't take it anymore. I know quiting without backing up for another job to transfer into is a not a good idea, still i am taking the risk. I am now willing to start another long journey in job seeking. wish me luck, my friends. Thank you all for reading me, I am blessed to have this pen to penned the execessive emotions...

Reviews

[gabrielle]

slowly but surely...this is one of the ideas that came to mind when i read this piece. There are times, however, that we prolong to make a choice because we do not want to take responsibility or to take risk.
imaginary duck-tape---what a vivid image you created in here!

[Pax]

thanks Gab,I am afraid to take risk, ang hirap kayang walang trabaho, I am planning to quit kasi... hay... mahirap talaga na decision, hay buhay... I appreciate the review my friend, and the duck tape is very useful in many cases. :D

[gabrielle]

in that case, better play safe :) ...mahirap pag walang work sa Pinas. welcome pax :)

[Pax]

you got that right, mahirap kayang tambay, :D

[Pax]

I made my decision na Gab, I hope I am doing it right, I am taking the risk, wish me luck :)

[gabrielle]

That's a very tough decision, pax. Always keep positive. In the mean time, while "resting" it will help to spend wisely :)

[Rachelle]

Good luck, my friend! You've got to fly in the currents that will lift you up. God be with you!

[Pax]

thank you, Rach... I hope you are doing well.. godbless to you......

[Marie]

Being indecisive is better than making a hasty decision you may regret later. In the last line of your poem you write that the final choice is made sure without fear and hesitation. It's best to wait till you know what is right.

[Pax]

indeed, my friend, thank you, as always you say such truer words, I am always grateful!

[An owl on the moon]

Oh, how the freedom to choose comes with such anguish at times.. wanting to choose wisely... yet, often caught in a mix of grays... And smiled.. yes.. duck-tape can work miracles... even in metaphors. :)

[Pax]

thank you, very much my friend, yes, i am just hoping everything comes smoothly when the time arrive... :)

[jacob erin-cilberto]

sometimes indecision is simply not want to or being afraid to make one.
staying safe within the confines is the choice...we put off choices often because those we have already made once before turned out badly...
nice feel to this piece, Pax.

[Pax]

wise as ever, my friend, thank you so much, that's quite a relief to read your insight, i think i needed that, to realized something or to learned what to do next. I am grateful with this... my mind is going crazy already...