You come in then you came out, that's okay.

I can never control who comes in and out of my life

Nor can I hold them back

Priorities becomes their main center point

Even I do that, it is pretty normal

They may forget me, that’s okay

I’m used to being alone anyways.

It’s lonely, I know, 

But it is not the end of my world just yet,

Happy birthday to me. J

Author's Note

yeah, today is my big birthday... June 27,1986... now you know my age, ha, more matured now, more understanding towards others and hoping to be content someday, somewhere down the road.

This piece came out of the blue thinking of my friends back at home that I lost contact, yet in their FB I find them happy and well, good for them. Life goes on, we meet friends then fade away as time passed as we go on to the next step of our daily lives. For those who stay we're lucky, for those who don't I/you can't blame them, we can only say priorities comes first, i guess... For those who still remembers me, I am thankful to have them, and they know who they are...

I celebrated my bday here, because I love my family here...

Reviews

[Sugar Plum ♥]

Wow, so sweet and nice! I`m happy to read this lovely piece...even so late! I was not here during these months, but I read it now, as yesterday was also my birthday! I can relate to it :) I actually like being alone more, as there is always me the "most intelligent person" to talk with :) Of course we have our times with people, and alone...and birthday is great time to celebrate with most precious of you! very nice write!::

:: nour ::
Oct. 23.

[gabrielle]

Thank you for sharing this birthday reflection. Indeed, people come and go in our lives but when a friend failed to communicate with you on your special day it doesn't mean that he/she forgets you. perhaps, the internet access is down or maybe there's brownout :)

Happy birthday again ading (younger bro) Pax! All you need is faith and trust and a liitle bit of pixie dust! ..^__^..Enjoy your day!

[Pax]

Thanks Gab, sana nga ganun lng, but I could see na they have forgotten me, oh well, I gain some and lose some, those I treasure is always within us even though they are far away and out of contact, memories treasured. Thanks For being here Gab, I so appreciate it always my good, good friend...

ah, yan pala yung meaning nang ading, younger bro, meaning your older than me? really? di naman halata...

[gabrielle]

Just want to share an excerpt from Neruda's If you Forget Me:

"Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you."

You may start calling me manang. LOL. Welcome.

[Pax]

haha, I would not call you that... di ka pa naman matanda...lol

Nice, I like that, famoust poet yan siya diba? I like it, it really reflects what I felt...

[gabrielle]

lol. it's a sign of respect. lol..
not sure how famous he is basta like ko mga poems nya :)

[Pax]

LOL, next time I'll think about it, ilabas na yung nakatago diyan sa baul... hehe

[Belle]

haha...para sa akin ba eto? parang patama ah!!! O ayan di mo alam dadating naman talaga etong kaibigan mo dito at espeyal na kaibigan ka naman talaga! HAPPY BIRTHDAY,GREAT GUY! I have so much to say, but forgive me I feel so drained with all the ethnographic research I am doing and the teaching job in the university! Usap na lang tayo uli one of these days...

[Pax]

hahaha, di naman para to sa mga closed friends ko in my school days, nakalimutan na ata nila ako, oh well... that's life... no worries, I know your still there for me and I for one is the same for you...missed seeing you here but I know you always come by... its a gut feeling from you best buddy :) thank you very much for being here... its more than enough...

[jacob erin-cilberto]

happy birthday, Pax....and many more...

you will never be forgotten by those of us here on the cafe...

28 candles to you.

jacob

[Pax]

Thank you muchly my good friend...blowing that candles now, wishing everything this year will be fine... I so appreciate the greetings my friend...

[Wórdsmíth]

Your emotions come down in words, my friend. Very beautiful poem you dedicated to you .. Ha! Happy b`day to you, Pax. May this b`day you have many blessings from the sky, from the heart of the God to live a better life the way you ever wished to be lived!!

God bless you, Pax!
Oh, And, yea .. my friend, I knew your age .. Ha! *Smiling*

[Pax]

haha, that put a big smile on me. Thank you very much my good, good Wordsmith friend... it is a dedication for myself, indeed, ha.:D a dedication that I survived yet another year, I live a hard but good life another year and I have another year to be happy about despite everything that is sad with my life.. I so appreciate you my good friend...

[Wórdsmíth]

Your welcome, my friend .. i`m glad to make some smiles on your face. Oh, well friend .. problems come in everyone`s life, you have to walk with them in a hope to get off your all the problems one day because the hope`s everything my friend. Don`t loose your hopes! Hopes`re the real omen of real life to be lived the way you ever want to live ... May you live long, Pax! ;)

[Pax]

I can't thank you enough my good friend... I am wishing everything will turn out fine in the end... fingers cross...

[Wórdsmíth]

You make me smile. Thank you for your wishes in return. I do appreciate it. There`s no need to cross your finger my friend (It`s a sign that you`re in fear of fear) .. Don`t be in fear .. just believe that everything`d be fine in the end because everything`d HAVE TO BE fine in the end ;)

[Everett DeValle]

Aba! Talaga si Cancer sign...kolimlim...nag bagio ang mata ko...aye sus! Lol jk

Your poem has so much emotional depth that it is universal...it's life...it feels like everything around is progressing and you feel like you are nowhere...and yet you show strength and sacrifice...one day you will rewarded for your efforts...and it's always God's time. Patience.

My dear friend...Happy Birthday...May your day be as joy-filled and wonderful as it can possibly be.

~Ev

[Pax]

haha,Thank you Eve, that makes me smile, big time, kasi now I am in my room with my roommates no one even knows its my brithday, just here in wc, so I am grateful... greetings alone makes my day.

Patience is all I have left, and I am holding it tight...and having faith that everything will fall into place... bless you my good, good friend...

[Everett DeValle]

Hey, what are friends for...I'm known to offer smiles and laughter. :) Ewww, I hate roommates...traumatic experience...I use to live with a guy who was supposedly a PRO MMA Fighter...but he was the filthiest and messiest dude, to live with...and moody emotional...I think he was Aquarius...Ugh...Yeah, if you don't have that type of relationship...don't bother...go treat yourself...Watch a movie...or go a party place...celebrate...it's an achievement that you made your birthday.

Yooooure Welcome!

[Pax]

haha, what an experienced is that, I remember my cousins when they are left home for a month then after that the house was a mess... my roommates are okay, great infact, it is just me, I don't show at tell too much, I am a bit shy & a bit of a introvert person... perhaps that is why I don't like attention much, Thanks good friend, perhaps I'll have a blast when I got back home, you know Saudi is very strict on parties..

[Everett DeValle]

It was a horrible experience...Messy...ugh! He lost a lot fights lol...OMG, I didn't want to talk to him if he did...just...it's just ugh! Lol nevermind...positive thinking Ev positive thinking...serioso machado...tell em it's your birthday...buy a bottle and bring back to your place...if your moderate about it won't get out of hand. It's once a year...splurge.

[Pax]

Perhaps that is why he was so messy because he was not winning any game... :) nah, I we dont alcohol here, remember...lol, three year bday have passed its been like this, so I guess I used to it already, I don't mind... Positive thinking to me and to you also about that roommate of yours..haha, cheers to us my friend...

[Everett DeValle]

Nah, he wasn't disciplined...his mommy did everything for him...I had to teach him how to wash dishes properly...UGH! Sorry lol I had flashbacks...nevermind...Ah, I see...go to fried chicken joint...that's what I would do on my birthday...Fried chicken lol Cheers

[Pax]

lol, that kind of people needs more realization on his part - sometimes it will take longer, even years...I assumed he is not your roommate anymore...

Yeah, friend chicken, lol, perhaps I'll go out later to treat myself, because this early there is no open much,...

[Everett DeValle]

He was in his late twenties...he's lucky I was good friend with the owner of the gym he teaches at...I use train many many years ago...self defense purposes or just to work out...but these days everyone is a fighter smh...anyhoo, I don't do it anymore...I know how...but I'm a peaceful person. Yeah, go for it...I love fried chicken lol lates pre

[Pax]

haha, wow, you should teach me sometime. I really wanted to learn some too...

[Everett DeValle]

Sorry, Pax...I had to knock out...off to work...oh, to answer your question...you have to be a black belt to teach...and I'm not into like I use too...in fact, I don't likd watching it...I go hiking...but if your interested...look into it, if it's for you. Enjoy your birthday! :)

[AprilRN1210]

First off, let me say, "Happy Birthday!!!"

Lives, relationships, priorities do change as you get older, but TRUE friends always find a way to stay in contact. They may move away, but they stay in our memories/hearts forever because they MEAN something to us.

[Pax]

Thank you very much, that is so true.... I just remember those times that they are with me... I treasure within. I appreciate the greetings my friend, :)

[AprilRN1210]

It was my pleasure. I hope you have a lovely day:)