I hate sadness

~ I am musing with the world's sadness, a reflections of my own as well...

 

 

 

 

 

I hate sadness

 

It makes me look weak,             

                        My tears leaks…            

                My eyes is sore           

        My heart is a bore           

  and My body repeats a painful encore.              

 

                  I dust away the sad memories,                                        

But it comes along like it’s my adversaries.                   

 

I hate sadness

It shakes my reality, a piercing faithfulness

                Towards my soulful unhappiness.

 

I don’t need help,

But in truth I am lying to myself.

 

You’ll never know, what comes and goes

Yet I am stuck between my toes.

 

I hunger for that light

But all that comes is my arresting night

 

Perhaps I am doom with my own gloominess.

Starvation and Weariness

                   Is a consolation of my messiness

A choice with laziness,

         To ponder, and wonder

                    To the world’s unending sadness.

Author's Note

perhaps anyone can relate to this kind of sadness, i guess we all go through with it... it's just that i am still stuck with it...

I have just shown my old face...
that's the old me...
I rarely used my full pic, but here i am...
maybe because that's just the nice facade , the reality is that....
this person in the photo is a stranger... :(

I have shown my full pic coz i want you my friends to know I am as real as what i have written... that this is the me who have been here for almost two years now...

all of my writes is a piece of me, & a fragment of my soul... so i am thankful to all who have read me and my journey...

Reviews

[Sugar Plum ♥]

You are one of the unique writers and poets, who shows the "real self" and makes observation of his own feeling in very profound way! I like that strong emotions and honesty for our own personality. It`s something many people lack, to see direct in the mirror as so many painters in the past...I love that in you, even the source of inspiration is so darken and full of gloom..but many times after that the light is coming! We have to live this darkness behind, as in the moment of life...all is directed to the light...I started to think about the phrase :
I hate sadness
It shakes my reality, a piercing faithfulness
Towards my soulful unhappiness.

"Soulful unhappiness" is like living source of pain...but will u wish to be "soulless happiness" ? (if that is possible) such antagonistic feelings abide in many souls, just we have to overcome them, that how we have our "past"...The world has so much sadness, as the hell is empty of it :) so here is our redemption. (I like this photo :)

:: nour ::
:: September-013 ::

[Pax]

wow, i am speechless.... thank you very much sweet friend...

[Corset]

Sometimes we gotta force those feet to the floor, and write me some new chapters (hint hint) lol, ok I'll stop being selfish, I do know this kind of sadness my friend, it can be suffocating especially on the days one cant' force themselves into day, but you are here and you are our WC joy, so come on Paxie, write it out for us, purge those dark feelings, we need ya.

[Marie]

Despite my losses, I have managed to insulate myself from sadness, because I've found outlets to the future for myself.
You are a creator, Pax, and that will sustain and guide you.

[Gypsy Warrior Queen]

I used to believe that my sadness was a weakness and then one day I caught my reflection in the water. Behind me the sun shone like a hat upon my head. I realized in those times that i only have to change my hat to change my perception. I think that you will find the self you wish to be.. this sadness only defines the you in this poetry as of now. However, I think it is bringing you great strength:) The best to you in your time of growth and retrospect dear Pax!

[Dhaye]

I also hate sadness...but it's normal to feel such emotion. In my case, I want to thank my sadness for being my muse once in my life. LOL. Honestly speaking, sadness has taught me so many things to enhance my personality. Without it, I won't come in a period of realization.
So, just be true to yourself. You're free to express all your emotions...in your writings.
Keep going, Pax. Just always talk to someone funny so you can forget all your problems. LOL.

[Pax]

thanks pretty friend...
Yup, I need laughter and a lot of smiles in my life to lift up my life... even though i hate sadness, it tought me many thinks too, like you... so i am still thankful despite the hate aura we have...

ps.Now you see me in full pic, it's not a puzzle piece anymore... :)
Salamat...

[Dhaye]

Matagal na nga. Ikaw talaga, di ba nga sa Wounds of my Past? Ano bang dapat itago? Hindi naman ako taga-inyo...At saka, ambabaw naman ng taong sa physical nakadepende ang pakikipag-friend. Wala naman sigurong ganon dito.

[Pax]

lol... pero ganun naman yung iba diba(reality speaking)... I sometimes feel like beautiful people are only for beautiful people..kasi bagay ika nga... but then again mababaw nga... still many people do look at the physical than the person itself... sad fact in this sad reality...

[Dhaye]

Ikaw na ang nagsabi sa akin...You are who you think you are. Oh, ganon dapat...kantahan na lang kita..."Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all..." When you love yourself and show to the world that you are a lovable person, then they will love you, too. Oh, sa inyo ni Marc ko rin natutuhan yang mga sinasabi ko ha?

[Pax]

thanks... hugs... you know musing with sadness affects you much...

[Dhaye]

Perhaps... But I'm getting back into my funny stuffs, as you can see. I miss my jokes. I miss how I make people smile and laugh. If 10% don't like my jokes, then there are still 90% who like them.

[Dhaye]

Hehe. Nagkwenta na...how sure I am? Example lang yun. LOL

[Pax]

why care with the percentage, knowing your closed friends enjoyed it will be enough.... kasi ika nga diba, we can never please everyone... ako nga, i don't have a lot of friend outside wc, but i kept the close one closer, kasi yung lang yung mga tao segorado akong kilala ako.. :) diba!

[Renée]

Sweet friend again I must say..though this is filled with sorrow...your writing has improved in leaps and bounds over your early ones ( : I wish I had a magic word to relieve you of your hearts burdens..but perhaps in sharing it does..perhaps knowing with each day it grows closer to a day of a different feeling..
Regarding your photo..your a handsome man..but don't feel strange not wanting to show your physical self here..you show your heart and soul here Paxy in your writing.. Blessings to you my sweet friend and may your heart grow lighter soon xo

[Pax]

thanks my friend, sometimes a warm hug will just do its thing...
I am glad you have noticed my improvement my friend... it's been almost 2 years now, and i am still here writing my heart out... i am so glad i discover this site and discover many literary friends... your like my family here, you included my dear dear friend...

Handsome man, thanks Renee... I never had considered myself Handsome, sometimes i don't feel good with myself... perhaps that is why i am afraid to show it...

Its so nice you have come and visit me... thank you..

[Renée]

((hugs))
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[gabrielle]

Sadness is good pax. it makes us human. what is worst is that when we feel nothing at all or be numb about life.... when i look at my old pics, i feel what you feel, for the girl i once was, seems now a stranger.

[Pax]

Yes, true... thank you Gab...

[gabrielle]

nyek. pinalitan ang pic. this one, i presume, is more recent than the first one i saw- there's more emotions flowing from this eye.

[Eddie Phillips]

I know many people who can relate. I am one of them. Sadness is a demon that comes to devour us. It never stops trying to bring us down. Thanks Pax for sharing your thoughts on this subject in such a austere and truthful way.

[Pax]

Thank you Eddie, I really do appreciate this... and i am glad you can relate to its sentiments...

[Coyote Poetry]

Hard to escape sadness. Many reasons to fall into sadness. I believe we need to heal and come alive once again. Need time and patience. I like the emotion and the desire of this poem. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Pax]

Thank you my friend, always!
Indeed Sadness are always there, avoiding it is just like you in denial...

[Frieda P]

So sad Pax, but I understand that feeling of being as a mere shell of your old self, I don't think I've felt the same since I lost my beloved sister, it's the pain that keeps on giving, that sadness that invades your heart and soul. You've touched me with your sadness, perhaps sharing can somehow make it an easier load to bear my sweet friend. xo

[Pax]

thanks my friend...

I am sorry about your sister... you know ...September, October, November, December... we call it the 'Ber Months'... its the months that my mother(october), uncle&grandfather(november&december), 2 aunts(september & december).... In that time i felt like it was a chain of events because all died with complicated illness... and i still remember it... I guess we are never alone in this emotions, we all go through with it either the hard or the lighter way...thanks again my friend...

[Yellow Butterfly]

Amazing write Pax... I have had my fair share of sadness through the death of my father.. I guess it never leaves you when you lose someone so close. Sadness is hard to define and is really personal to all who suffer from it.

I feel your sadness through this sombre write... :0)