wanting to fade

~ just wanting to share this feeling to you my friends...

Wanting to fade…

 

Sometimes I just wanted to fade

Out of sight, but just around

 

To hide and vanished

Or be erased momentarily

To feel my existence in a place

Like I belong

 

Hours, minutes, and seconds passed

The white walls grab me to blend in

To pretend that I am part of something

Other than being out of place

But the dark ribbon that lurks in my eyes

Sheds light of who I am

 

…tired!

 

Perhaps longing to belong,

  Awaits in the far door I fear to go… 

Author's Note

credits to the talented photographer : DavidSchermann

Reviews

[Fernando Dardón]

I guess we all could feel identified with this poem, somehow, no matter what.
There are times that we don't feel part of something, like we were "wanting to fade"
I do feel identified with it, 'cause sometime I felt this way. It was a time I hadn't find a way, haven't feel confortable where I was.
But times goes by, and I slowly found my way. I'm still not there, but I'm on the way. Finding interesting people, new experiences, bad ones, new places; have learned some things, and forgotten other things.
We use to fear going somewhere, 'cause going somewhere sometimes looks "dangerous", but what whe need to is that we actually need to go some direction to find someplace.
Maybe the ribbon that covers our eyes will never cover the light inside ourselves. I suppose that light will be there as long as we want to, as long as we pursue a dream...

[Pax]

Maybe the ribbon that covers our eyes will never cover the light inside ourselves. I suppose that light will be there as long as we want to, as long as we pursue a dream...

~ wow, I could have not said it better myself, thank you. Knowing this piece is like looking upon yourself and with that I am glad you could relate to its core meaning, core feelings. I am amaze on how you see this piece, I am grateful with that.

[Fernando Dardón]

Youre welcome!!! :-)

[Mehak Mushtaq]

Sometimes reality is just too much for us and we need to step back and consider the possibility of being something else. A very honest and moving write!

[Pax]

yes, indeed! You are very right my friend... I thank you with this reflective review and visit... you know i am always grateful with this...

[Mehak Mushtaq]

Anytime, dear friend.

[Pax]

I so love your writing my dear brother, it's dark, but so profound, here you treasure the moments, you highly long for, mixed with the dark bondage as a metaphor in front of your eyes, to make you "life blind" somehow... numb, to not feel, but ah you feel so much still.... and that's why I come back, for that sparkle of positivism, and the wings, unchained... :) very profound piece of art, my bro, in all ways, you rock at this.

- Elisa

[Pax]

~"life blind" somehow... numb, to not feel, but ah you feel so much still....~
Oh, those feelings.... This piece when i wrote it, i felt many stings of reality... sometimes i just want to fly in my writes, but in this i just want to fade... sometimes i am tired big sis, but i do keep my life on track for the people who cares... coz i know, i believed on the good someday for me... your words have touched my soul, again.... I can't thank you enough big sis...

I'm tired too, and even more when you are, just keep on fighting and flying always little bro, we need you still here ;) hugssss x

[Great Aunt Astri]

'The dark ribbon that lurks in my eyes' ... very original ....love it!
I think a lot of people identify with your sentiment of 'longing to belong'. Another poetic sounding phrase. !Well done.

[Pax]

Thank you again... Great Aunt Astri... I am glad you love this piece... that means so much to me..

[Robbie~xoxo~]

Together your words and the photograph take me to a dark and lonely place within your mind... I believe at some point in time we all feel this way, yet some are scarred deeper than most...
This is a poignant piece, written with precision...the core of your existence (or non-existence) is heartfelt...
Well expressed art, Paxy!~xoxo~

[Pax]

hugs to my dear beautiful friend...
it's a lonely and dark place indeed, but i am holding a light at my hand...
it was given by my friends here in wc(you included), my hope, my faith...
that good someday will come...
i am always greatful with you, many hugs...

[Tate Morgan]

Well that explains why I havent seen you much lately . Everyone needs to step back and take a break now and then. You will find yourself in due time it is inevitable But the difference is this find who you are not who others want you to be

[Pax]

Hey my friend...
yeah, sometimes my mind is too crowded... that i step back wishing to fade away... momentarily to achieved that peace of mind... reflect the things I needed to work out into... sometimes you just have to wish that everything will just be the same like before... but sadly it is not... yet we know, i know, we can be better than the past... i am tired, i pause for a breathing space... that's what i do... to survive because i believed of that contented someday...

thank you so much mr. Tate my friend...

[Tate Morgan]

i do the same thing In time your mind will find its own direction

[Shep]

We all fade into the background i know that from experience. I like the poem it truly says everything about you.

[Pax]

thank you my friend, I'm glad you do understand this feelings...
Perhaps all of us goes through with this, it just a matter on how we handle it...

[Dhaye]

The same feeling when I wrote my poem WHY. The truth is, we cannot please everybody...and we have to accept that truth even if it hurts. Still, I am in the process of convincing myself about it...

Thanks for sharing this, Pax. :)

[Pax]

I already known that feeling before, I had learned that experienced that is why as much as possible to avoid... but this is not about pleasing everyone, at a certain point of our life, we do seek a place that you belong, that you are at the right place, right people, the right organization, even in the right peace of mind... I needed that peace of mind, my mind is too crowded to be... that often times i am tired of all the madness around me(outside world)... feeling ko nga eh, mas more ako naging introvert, even though i know i am just slightly introvert... kasi kaya ko na man maging outgoing and open to everyone but for now i don't need those... sigh.. salamat kabayan...

[Cole Hayley]

I love the photo and it adds to the poem SO much.
"But the dark ribbon that lurks in my eyes sheds light of who I am"

Outstanding.

[Pax]

yes, that photo is really great.... as well as it really describe the different negative feelings i have in life... Thank you my friend... that line is the core of this piece... I am greally glad you liked this...

[Gypsy Warrior Queen]

Do you think that we ever belong to anything...even times our own minds single us out and make us feel like a stranger /outsider. I love the picture that you chose to put with the piece. I do understand what you are speaking of here and I too wish that sometimes I could just fade into the tapestry. Great Write1

[Pax]

Thank you so much, ms. Red...
and i believed you are right...
my mind often becomes crowded that i myself becomes a stranger to it...
i am grateful with this shared insight...

[Relic]

I'm sure most can relate to this. We ca be around friends and not feel as though we belong. I know I've felt this way often. Sometimes we just need to re-group and try again later. Good topic.

[Pax]

yes, I believed we needed that...
that sense of fading for a time, to stay silent and just to reflect...
a peace of mind for even just a moment... because we needed it for strenght to regroup late on..
perhaps that's how we survive...
thank you so much my friend, I really do appreciate the insight and visit...

[Relic]

You're welcome Pax.