A Profound Journal

poetry pretending to be a prose in journal style

 

Dear reader

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I understand now, how the life of the weeds works, for I am just one of them; just a little different like everybody else is unique. This ostrich is not free to fly but it’s free to run as he pleases. This bee is sorry to all that it stings, it’s because he’s too vulnerable from harsh realities.

 

 

 

To unblock what is locked, to release the unpleasant burden. What creeps out spit it out; never ponder on the things black or just plain blank.

 

 

Do you think this cat is sorry enough from everyone he scratched? Well I think he's really sincere for he didn’t repeat the same mistakes. Regrets are just a pain in the a*s, better not to overdo things.

 

 

Sincerely you friendly neighbor,

w.Pax

Author's Note

a sorry to everyone i've hurt...updated for some errors.

sorry for giving little info about this, but it speaks for itself...
I'm thankful to all that had read this...

Reviews

[TTBoy28]

Pax:
Why on earth would you think you have hurt anyone...because your 'word choice' did not match their reality? Don't sweat it! The objects you have displayed and written about seem to only hurt humans et al when they are in protective mode. When their space is invade, without an invitation, they and even humans get antsy. If they are left alone to roam freely in their own environment, then like-minded can only harm each other. A hurtful action can and will be repeated if the behavior is not corrected. That's what I think you mean by "Regrets." Let it Go!

[captain]

don't think about it too much Pax.
I like this very much creative.

[Pax]

thank you captain... your view is much appreciated..

[Grey]

Interpretations and justification can change everything. You don't know the brass of any friendship till it is tested in a crucible. Defense is offense and offense is defense and it always only becomes a sickening circle. This life is more broken than right and it is the fissure between individual justifications that destroy more than we would ever want. Even the most sincere attempt at respect can be smeared and tainted, if it, even mistakenly, wounds a heart, especially those we are closest and most vulnerable to. Excellent point, excellent approach at interpreting it. Grace is always the profound variant and always should be pursued.

[Pax]

I felt breathless with your response my new friend...
:)
you also have a profound understanding of life itself like this journal...
you understand the cycle of life and human nature itself...its a sickening circle indeed at times but we learned to understand its ways and be aware in the next cycle..

[Tate Morgan]

Dont dwell on it. We all have these. You have a conscience and it obviously works. You are a good man Pax And we here like you.

[Pax]

thank you for just being you mr. Tate... I'm glad.

[Tate Morgan]

Regrets seem the price for self awareness. For all other creatures it is simply a matter of survival.But for man it is more about power and those he steps on to gain it. Regrets are for the ones who see the tears they cause. However in this day and age we see less of that because we can affect others remotely with texting and such.In that manner we are not forced to visualize the pain we cause from afar

[Pax]

mr. tate with your insight, I'm truly grateful. You've shed some light again to me..
"Regrets seem the price for self awareness."
~ very true in all its forms... and writing it is a form of letting go...
technology has upgraded since then... and communication rise up beyond its limits with its help... and i see a lot of miscommunication in it...
again... I'm thankful with your friendship and guidance...

[Tate Morgan]

many times I have written to friends and found they misconstrued what i meant with what they thought i meant. However An example my son broke up with a girl a few months ago by texting her.i was furious Not because he broke up with her but because he did it ion a cowardly manner.He didnt face her because he knew hie would feel guilt over making her cry. That is the price i think life demanded for him .Byu cheating life he escapes consequences But a true conscience demands we look at what we do and feel for those we ionjure

[Pax]

i agree with you, and the example you brought is quite relatable... and i felt a little guilty as well for i did that before... but now I learned that there is a difference talking in by using technology and talking intimately in person... but again love expands its boundaries right... communication helps it grows... and before they used to do it also in a form of letters right… leaving a letter of goodbye…
oh..I'm a bit far off the topic... well i think when you break up with someone, you must do it in person for the emotional essence will be present and letting go will be much easier when you see the sincerity in the eyes of the person you want to let go…

[Tate Morgan]

Eloquently put.I agree with you and seed this discussion in your favor

[Pax]

*smiling* its just likewise perspective mr. Tate... we learn from each others...

[Tate Morgan]

isnt it grand the way that works.detant is a success now if only the Israelis and Palestinians would do the same.There we find the two most alike civilizations at odds.In all the world there ios no other place where essentially the peoples are the same genetics and because of religion think they are not

[Pax]

having staying here a year now at an Arabic speaking country... religion plays a huge imprint its society and I respect that… my point will be… that religion must be understand properly… the misconception is too evident now… some people’s belief are too shallow that they understand it poorly and people with great skills can easily manipulate those kind of people… turning it into a feud… if only people would understand and respect each other’s views… at times acceptance is the most hardest to swallow…
I don’t know much of the conflict between these two countries… but I say greed and selfish interest plays a major part of its indifference.. . don’t you think life is easier if we learned to share or barter goods with no hidden agenda…

[Pax]

and also having the key ingredient: acceptance in all its faces.... accepting the mistakes in each parties, accepting the indifference and etc... like in this journal and you said it best: self awareness...

[Tate Morgan]

In the united states the north and south tried their best to rip this country apart yet they both prayed to the same god . God cannot both be for a thing and against the same thing at the same time As Lincoln said this country must become all slave or all free it cannot survive half of one or half the other.There will come a day when the isrealies and palestinians will all be so homogenous as to be thew same thing

[Pax]

mr. Tate, sorry for the late response...I've been reflecting with my friend about religion as well..
and he said: Religion is a double-edged sword...
and like i always said:if you believe religion is a tool of evil then its evil, but if you believe religion is a tool for good then its good.. the power of believing and faith depends on the person on how he/she perceived it(its either percieving it in a good or bad way).
but i think the main point of this feud are: Power Hunger, Selfishness own interest and Greedy nature...i may be wrong or right... i guess throuhout the history we keep repeating the same greedy nature that ends up in war... we can never take out our bad nature, but it really depends on the person if he/she succumb to its nature...i still hope and i have faith on mankind to change...its never too late for peace...

[Tate Morgan]

I do not believe religion is a bad thing I think humans are. Anyone save Ghandi who have made it to the top of power have sold their souls to the evil of selfishness and forsaken selfless behavior

[Pax]

sorry i misinterpret what you meant... well how do we stop this bad nature within us... you know very well every change starts off from within... and i meet some people are very closed minded... how can change will start if once being is close to any awareness of the soul...

[Tate Morgan]

I think religion is responsible for way more bad than good I think in this case we need to grow up and cast off these superstitions. Religion is responsible for granting its followers the moral right to injure others in the name of god Whether or not it truly is meant to do such things it does them just the same.religion will always play to peoples fears and weakness. There is no empirical proof of a god so there is no reason to believe in what cannot be proven. I think the first thing that we need to do is take away this riotous idealism and replace it with compassion for humanity

[Marie]

I believe in God., but I like the way you think.

[Tate Morgan]

I thank you for that It shows true ability to grow and change.

[Pax]

I also like the way you think mr. Tate, you give me ideas to think wide...and i really really appreciate that...
"religion will always play to peoples fears and weakness."
~ yes in some ways, aside from that it gives us strength to handle the harsh realities of the imperfection of the world... like how buddhism used enlightenment... its teaches us how to overcome our fears and weakness...
i think my point is that:
Human are weak in nature, i mean in a sence that our innocence is vulnerable to any darkness or any stain...

and as i think religion was created intented for us to make us strong emotionally and spiritually... what do you think when we pray? we speak to our soul seeking answers within us... god is within us...its just like meditation...looking to oneself...

[Pax]

and about this: Anyone save Ghandi who have made it to the top of power have sold their souls to the evil of selfishness and forsaken selfless behavior:
why would you think Ghandi sold his soul...? i've read he was on the top and was assassinated...do you think he was assasinated because of his beliefs?

[Tate Morgan]

But budism is not a religion it is a way of life.Buddhism would be a favorable alternative to religion though.When we pray we seek enlightenment fro within calling on the thoughts and deeds of our lifetime to help us We then say it is god but it is really us ,.we want to do good but we dont want to suffer we want to see jesus but we dont want to die . The remark about ghandi you misunderstand everyone save ghandi means all but ghandi

[Pax]

yeah i know...i misunderstood... i didn't quite understood it.. that's why i asked...
why the wiki said its a religion? so you agree on the teaching of buddism... for me i think its also a religion because it also talk about spirituality..
yes...i also thought about that... we pray because we seeks answers within us... and its the deeper soulful us who weights the answers to our questions... and i think god is only guiding us from within the conscious mind...

[Tate Morgan]

can one believe in gos and not be spiritual? Can you be spiritual and not believe in god?'
I believe a man can be spiritual and mot believe in god
Spirituality is the concept of an ultimate or an alleged immaterial reality;[1] an inner path enabling a person to discover the essence of his/her being; or the "deepest values and meanings by which people live."[2] Spiritual practices, including meditation, prayer and contemplation, are intended to develop an individual's inner life. Spiritual experiences can include being connected to a larger reality, yielding a more comprehensive self; joining with other individuals or the human community; with nature or the cosmos; or with the divine realm.[3] Spirituality is often experienced as a source of inspiration or orientation in life.[4] It can encompass belief in immaterial realities or experiences of the immanent or transcendent nature of the world.

[Pax]

I'm almost breathless with your reply mr. Tate...i salute you for this friendly debate…
And now, you believed that no higher being is out there somewhere.. and it’s just you...you’re the higher being within yourself...?
we are back to start. What is religion by the way..
religion is a name to categorize our different beliefs right...
and what is belief...for what i think it is : it’s a collections of our deepest thoughts and enlightenment written down and passed down to generation to generation...throughout the pages of history... belief is part of human nature that is within us holding truths and wisdom in our perceptions deeper being...
my point is if we take out religion then it is just like we are taking out our beliefs right?
Religion is a complex, complex reality that is subjectable to debate…without real any balance answer… for it can go to a good start or bad…

[Tate Morgan]

Well the part that I cannot ascribe to believe in {BLIND FAITH} To me this is an insult to my intelligence. If I am forced by society to believe in what cannot be proven .Just because a billion people believe in something does not make it so. Mass disillusion is simply that . Or is it the fabric that holds a society together A share faith that makes us alike in one way or another. The problem with this idea becomes more apparent as we look out upon the whole world. Here most are christian.However with the advent of the internet we find we are not the only belief system. We tell others their belief is wrong and think them crazy to pray to whomever. Yet when they say the same to us we think they are misinformed. My own daughter thinks I am in for it because i doubt her version of god. She says she prays for my redemption .I say I pray for your enlightenment. Who can say ?
Born and raised a Catholic I still find I often think on this conundrum. Why would a god want worship anymore than a father of his children? It would seem counter productive for a god to demand worship of you at the same time telling you as a father to be humble. God did not give me a brain to follow others like sheep. It would be wrong not to use it to question the concepts we hold dear. If this upsets someone I am sorry. Not for the idea but for the injury. I am forced by nature to question all we hold dear.

[Tate Morgan]

My God


If I could create my own god

a soul of both solace and mirth

He who needs no one’s flatteries

nor demands them from all the earth



He would not possess jealousy

a trait that even men despise

Showing each one he is equal

within the lord of this worlds eyes



Having made of each a sinner

he would love all of us the same

Blaming himself for our failings

not tempering us in a flame



Our lives would be a tapestry

a quilt of love, that beauty built

Where he'd take pride in what we are

and not punish us, for his guilt



Tate

[Pax]

about someone who would be upset, that’s their own understanding in our conversation…
this is our conversation and sharing of ideas…it just happen to be open to the public to be view and to be criticize… and hopefully they will respect our own opinion for it’s a free world we are in…

and I am a free thinker, open to any opinion with respect…

{BLIND FAITH}
~ it’s the first time I’ve heard about that…

If I am forced by society to believe in what cannot be proven .
~ well God never pushes anyone…

is it the fabric that holds a society together A share faith that makes us alike in one way or another.
~yes I agree… shared faith makes us communicate in order right…

We tell others their belief is wrong and think them crazy to pray to whomever. Yet when they say the same to us we think they are misinformed.
~ this happen when respect is out of place or should I say gone…

My own daughter thinks I am in for it because i doubt her version of god. She says she prays for my redemption .I say I pray for your enlightenment.
~ I’m sorry about this, sometimes some people are close to the understanding of each other’s belief…

[Tate Morgan]

I agree I am sure with time the truth shall win out in its enlightenment

[†Tracey†]

I don't know how someone with such a gracious tender soul could ever feel as though you've out right hurt someone.. You can only be you, embrace that and your true friends will all stand beside you..x

[Pax]

thank you dear friend... I will...I'm just letting go of some old memories...

[Pax]

You're the most pure, person in life I met, it must been your roots....
my friend. Silent can be so releasing, let others speak and think....
For what is their truth, as long as you stay focust on yours! xoxo

[Pax]

thank you my dearest friend...
be safe and be well as always...
come back soon... ;)

♥ I see more things now...

[Marie]

Bees are not sorry when they sting. And cats are not sorry when they scratch. These creatures act out of their natural insticts. I believe people also have such instincts, but control them. And regrets are foolish, as you statel

[Pax]

thank you Marie... You are soo true in your words, you see things beyond... I'm grateful with your insights.

[Not Your Typical New Yo..]

No hurt, my friend. I like the concept of a journal poetry. I like the highlighted words, even a couple of them actually rhymed. You set your goal with this cool style. Keep writing and experiment.

[Pax]

thank you mr. Greg... truly i appreciate you reading this...

[Corset]

oh Pax, this is so tender, I love the message in it, how nature does as it was programmed toward reactions, like fear, hurt, etc. is human nature hard to find fault in that. I can't imagine your sweet soul hurting anyone, but if you ever did I bet they forgot it seconds after it happened :)

[Pax]

i hope so too..... you must not leave you anger inside boiling or it will explode someday... better to let go... Thank you dear friend.

[Michael G.]

Pax, in everything I've read that you have written, your honesty and sincerity come through clearly. One of the many reasons I enjoy reading your work. I have not seen "anything" you have penned to be sorry for, or to offer excuses for how someone else may react to it.
Keep being you, the good neighbor and friend. That is more than enough for me and others. Why, I consider that a very good deal!

[Pax]

:) Im glad and thankful mr. G... and keep being you as well...