![]() I NEED SOME HELP: school & lifeA Story by whitfitI NEED SOME HELP
I don't know what I'm doing or getting myself into. I'm a sophmore in high school and I've been debating wether or not to drop out now for the past two months.
I know, I know. "What the heck are you thinking Whitney?! Your'e a sixteen year old sophmore in high school and you want to just stop now?!" No. I'm a sixteen year old young girl who thinks she has it all figured out, then changes her mind, then again, then again. I'm supposed to be a senior next year, if only I haden't failed 8th grade. Then, 9th grade I got into the drug scene, got arrested, and spent my freshman year in juvi. Now that I look back, I don't think I could have passed freshman year if it weren't for all those 100s on all my word searches in jail.
I'm failing almost everything. I never go to class, and when I do, I talk to friends and color pictures. I have no excuse as to why I'm failing and I don't expect any sympathy. I could pass if I wanted to, but the thing is, I don't. I know I sound really stupid right now but I could care less about school. I know I will later, I know whats right for me and what I SHOULD be doing. I just don't want to. It's laziness I'm fully aware. It's so frustrating and I wish I weren't this way but I am. I know I have the power to get back up and just do what I need to do in high school to graduate, I JUST DON'T WANT TO.
I've met a boy. He's a senior and about to graduate. He's going to tech school in August, and we want to get an apartment then too. My plan WAS to drop out, get my GED, and get a full time job. A friend and his twin brother were also going to move in too, so there would be 4 of us, all with jobs, mine full time, one still in high school also with a part time job, and the twins going to school half days and working the rest of the time. It sounds perfect. Were all not the type to throw a party and trash everything, we do whats expected, and respect each other. I was so stoaked for it until me and my boyfriend started arguing more, and I realized he's not someone who would be able to support me down the road.
I think I'm going to just go to an alternative school, get a diploma there, and go on with my life. I want to do something with kids. I want to become a nurse, councelor, SOMETHING. I like to help people.
I just, need to help myself first. I don't know. I'm so lost I don't even know what to say. I want to feel bad for myself and get all this pity but at the same time, I know whats expected of me, and I know what I need to do. It's MY fault I wont just get up and do it! fdsklgkjhjklghnkldzng I Don't know :[
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3 Reviews Added on April 28, 2008 Last Updated on April 28, 2008 Author![]() whitfitGrapevine, TXAboutI'm Whitney. I'm 16. And my passion is all for writing. I hope to learn about this website soon, and begin writing tons of work that interest different types of people. My main goal is to write about .. more..Writing
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