Failure phobia

I have written about the fear of failure and defense mechanism a mind takes to pacify. This is my first attempt at poetry. Thanks for reading.

I don't know if it's really me
or my egotistical mind's phobia of failure.
I think I do not to care
or maybe my mind fools me to believe so.

Emotionless, pessimistic, and oblivious I am
with the fear of failure my mind crams.
I loathe the things I yearn,
for the fear of a broken heart of not achieving them.

This delusion, if I may call it so,
makes me feel strong.
I feel that the cyst containing my ego is strong
but what if, there is none now?

Author's Note

Hey reviewer! I'd like to thank you in advance to review my piece. I penned this down in 15 minutes. This being my first attempt at writing, believe me it was too difficult for me. Please critique and let me know how I can improve. Thanks a ton!