cry

As I lay in my bed crying tears every night from the emotional pain caused by anger, hurt and sadness,

My night terrors grow worse at the same time.

the worry and fear that flow through out my body, mind and soul can't be helped.

I know this isn't my destiny but I still follow down paths of broken hearts and torn

up buildings covered in dust by earthquakes.

As I look around me I saw big glowing red eyes that caused me to freeze in my place.

I panicked when I realized I couldn't wake myself up from the freight that hunt me down

and fed on my fear.

it wasn't a demon nor a evil entity but a monster, a black figure with glowing red eyes, long sharp teeth

and claws the size of my pillow. I screamed but no one came running, I cried but no one heard me out

and I stood in shock waiting to be slashed but I suddenly woke to a pure white light that chased the scary

shadow monster away.

I woke up panting heavily like never before, what was that pure light, it saved me from dying in my sleep.

I felt safe at last.

I always wake up wondering how many tears will flow down my cheeks night after night from night terrors and gloomed memories from past and present and I dare not to think of a non wanted sad future.

if anybody can set a goal to be happy, I wish for that too.

so as I cry over and over letting all overwhelming thoughts go.

at least to this very day I still wont know where to be.

one day i'll crying and the dreams of dying.