Scared Dreams

sometimes I feel like I'm losing myself during very dark times, I don't know how to feel at all, but I remember that I can't leave either.

When you climb out of your head and into your bed

do you reach your three bones for your heart?

And when you poke around and can't find a thing, 

do you climb up to your neck?

And when you're at your neck do you try to squeeze, 

squeeze away all the air that sings?

And as you squeeze do you feel like there's no place to run, 

no place, and you can't even scream?

Do you go through with all of your plans for the end,

or do you want to sleep instead?

'Cause when you close your eyes and start dreaming again

will you feel like dying again?

Or do your dreams still scare you too much to slip the pain?

k.y