Assume the Worst

Obsession, jealousy. Things that should be absent in a healthy relationship. Yeah right...

For the hundredth time I slide open my phone

No message alert imposed on my screen

I love you insanely, but I'm forced to be alone

At least you're so far away, you can't hear me scream

My heart breaks when I can't feel your touch

I know that I want you by my side

But I didn't know I was attached so much

Fear of losing you has me terrified

The thoughts I ponder keep me up at night

As I stare blankly into my phone like a zombie

Wondering what you do when you're out of sight

Doubting your fidelity and your love for me

I am sure there are a million good reasons

Why you don't respond to my call

My worries keep changing like the seasons

I list off the possibilities, considering them all

You could be sick, your phone could be broken

You're possibly working and just far too busy

Infinite ways you would not know what I've spoken

I know I shouldn't worry if you love me or miss me

My mind has a tendency to assume the worst

I simply guess that I'm not worth the time of day

I assume some other guy on your list is first

I think I'm just another game you play

Thoughts dance in me, my mind starts to corrode

I'm constantly breaking, my heart stops beating

My senses overloaded, I'm about to explode

I have nightmares of you happy through cheating

Then I wake up drenched in cold sweat

Praying that these worries are all just a game

My cycle of constant fear isn't quite done yet

I love you so much, I start to feel shame

I'm sorry for being scared and jealous all day long

My fears making you out to appear as a w***e

Deep down, I know the real you, the one I've known all along

For you my love, I assume the worst no more

Author's Note

I hope you like it. I feel strongly about the emotions behind it.

Reviews

[Lorraine]

"I have nightmares of you happy through cheating" This line would sound better this way, "I have nightmares of you happily cheating." Or maybe it's just me. Anyways, seems the emotions are really there and the paranoia is visibly felt. Nice try in creating a poetry out of an ordinary happening. Great Poem.

Keep Writing. ^___^