Endless Sleep

For death is no more than a turning of us over from time to eternity. ~ William Penn

 

Endless sleep seems to be

The answer in the darkness

Vision clouded with tears

Pain so deep in my heart

Comfort seems so far away

If I could simply drift today

In the painless comfort

Of an endless sleep

 

     Endless sleep will I be missed

     Endless sleep will anyone care

     Endless sleep when I am not there

     Endless sleep wraps me in comfort

     Endless sleep answers me in darkness

     Endless sleep leaves nothing in want

 

Soul yearning for the freedom

Removed from the pain

That life has brought

Men who used

Men who abused

Claimed there was love

Preached the undying commitment

Then burned my soul

 

     Endless sleep will I be missed

     Endless sleep will anyone care

     Endless sleep when I am not there

     Endless sleep wraps me in comfort

     Endless sleep answers me in darkness

     Endless sleep leaves nothing in want 

 

Every ounce of strength taken

All my energies exhausted

My choices had to change

My criteria needed redone

Picking the wrong one I was good at

Finding the right one was the task

Someone who would love me

As I loved them ~ can this ever be

 

     Endless sleep will I be missed

     Endless sleep will anyone care

     Endless sleep when I am not there

     Endless sleep wraps me in comfort

     Endless sleep answers me in darkness

     Endless sleep leaves nothing in want

 

Endless sleep is easier to find

Is endless sleep the answer

In my mind, the answer ~ yes

Till the sun appears again

Reality sinks in

Darkness turned to light

The bottom of the bottle, farther away

Smile a fake smile, tonight will be another fight

 

     Endless sleep will I be missed

     Endless sleep will anyone care

     Endless sleep when I am not there

     Endless sleep wraps me in comfort

     Endless sleep answers me in darkness

     Endless sleep leaves nothing in want

 

Can I release the demons

How many skeletons will fit

My closet is full

My heart broken too many times

My mind drained of thoughts

My soul emptied of emotion

How many times will I excuse

The pain inflicted to my heart

 

 

     Endless sleep will I be missed

     Endless sleep will anyone care

     Endless sleep when I am not there

     Endless sleep wraps me in comfort

     Endless sleep answers me in darkness

     Endless sleep leaves nothing in want

 

 

 

Author's Note

This poem is from a time in my life that I could not deal with all the emotions, mental torments that I had been through. On Nov 17, 1999, I contemplated ending my journey in life. My son saved my life, he was the one that made me realize that my life was worth living, if for nothing more than he needed me.

Reviews

[Litzsky]

I love stories of survivors.....I am glad you had stayed ,thanks to your son...You are truly a great person Wendy..I missed you so...

[TeacherAtHeart]

This is a wonderful poem...so moving..what raw emotions.
You make the reader feel your pain...glad to know you are doing WONDERFUL now!!
Thanks to your little boy for being the miracle that he is..not only has he
saved you but you have saved him..be proud!