Limerence

thoughts about a girl im kinda crazy about...or were...

I wonder if I love her.

My eyes savor every glimpse

Burning her every angle into

the darkest corners of my mind

so that my nerves can trace 

her outline on days when loneliness

seeks to lead my thoughts to madness.

But do I love her?

Infatuation only grazes the surface of this

emotional period i find myself 

venturing deeper into, past the point of no return

chasing after this new-found dream as if

waking up from anything involving her would be

harder to deal with than i desire to

But do I love her?

Is it merely a crush let live beyond its time?

Am i caught up in an idea?

If reality met my fondest wants to the letter

would i be able to accept her rough edges?

Is this feeling strong enough to keep me enraptured

long after the honeymoon phase becomes memory?

Am i only interested in what seems like perfection

Or am I truly ready to fall hard for her flaws

As if her mistakes are the best kind of unexpected miracles?

I don't know. Maybe I'm a fool who thinks its cool to

have my heart and mind twisted by amorous ideas

until logic and emotion are nowhere near discernible.

Or maybe i struck gold in the form of a friend

I found after being away for longer than i planned

the payoff being a possible relationship

and a potential happy ending, after so many plot twists.

Who knows?