Perfectionism

Dear Journal, 

Another two weeks have passed. 

A super-typhoon/hurricane was approaching Japan last weekend, and everything from Chubu to prefectures north of Tokyo were cancelled -- including the club performance I was supposed to be one of the two vocals. Fortunately for Nagoya, it made a right turn just before it was about to reach Aichi prefecture, destroying everything starting from Shizuoka to a bit north of Tokyo instead. With that being said, I did catch a nasty cold from the whole thing though.

I'm doing my best to eat well and get enough rest. The symptoms are not worsening, so I guess that means I'm doing something right.

With that being said, for some reason, I've been feeling a little blue and jumpy. It could be the PMS, or it could be that Cerberus decided to haunt me again. My perfectionism has become kind of problematic since I read about different writing styles. The I-can't-write-if-I-can't-write-perfectly is growing, and that's probably not a good sign. The courage to do things or write in ways that people don't usually do, on the contrary, has shrunk to the size of a pebble that gets stuck in people's shoes.

I feel like crying everyday. I feel overwhelmed despite the fact that I did not have school for three days this week. Or could it be because of it? The unnamed condensed feeling of "I don't matter," "I suck," and "No one likes me" is also back in town while Aunt Flo is already three days late.

The good news is, I'm meeting the doc tomorrow and then I'll be eating pork breasts at the only place in town that serves it.

Also, thank you for suggesting that I play the PS4. I bought Hitman: the Complete First Season and have been enjoying it. While I did cringe at how the characters speak forced Japanese in the mission in Japan instead of just speaking English like the mission in Thailand, it helps me escape the world for a little while.

Sincerely,

Wathanya

Reviews

[Scarlet]

So if you're feeling like you can't write things in uncommon ways, then you should probably write in those ways. Clearly you have because most people don't put their incredibly casual journal entry on the internet. That's a step in the right direction. Also I always like how casual your journals are. So some people will like your uncommon stuff too. Good luck dealing with this.

[Wathanya.5KY3]

Thank you for reading and reviewing. Now that you mention it, that's true; most people don't put their journal entries on the internet. Haha I'm glad you're enjoying my uncommon writing style. And welcome back!

I actually wrote a response from Journal to this entry, but the website had been acting strangely and now the response is lost in the void of the internet forever.