After the Date

After the movies over we drive home again in silence and I can't stop taking little peeks at him. We're getting married. I still can't wrap my head around it. I think he notices I keep looking at him because a smile creeps across his face causing me to blush. I shyly reach over and hold his hand the rest of the way home.

We get inside and then I realize I still haven't given him the picture frame. "Hey! Go sit on the couch and I'll be there in a minute." I wait for a few minutes watching him go to the couch then I hurry into the kitchen. I grab the gift and go excitedly into the front room holding out the box to him. He looks up at me, "What is this?"

It's a present. Open it." I watch almost squirming in happiness as he opens it and pulls out the picture frame. When he pulls it out he gets a big smile on his face causing me to giggle. He's adorable when he smiles.

"I love it." He gives me a soft kiss on the lips. "We really do need to go shopping though." He wraps his arms around me and I lean into him feeling more secure than I have in a long time. I cuddle up to him and he kisses my forehead. "You looked tense and upset earlier. Wanna tell me why?"

I blush and burrow into his chest, "I thought you were cheating on me with her so I was really upset. I mean you left for a couple hours then I hear your car pull up and I open the door to see you standing there talking to a woman who barely has any clothes on and you're smiling fondly at her..." My hands grip his shirt in jealousy and I lean more into him.

To my surprise he bursts out laughing and tilts my chin up. "You're so adorable. I won't ever cheat on you Rose. I'm so in love with you that I don't see anyone else. Next time just ask me. I won't get mad." He lightly brushes a kiss against my lips and I feel my blood rush up to my cheeks. Ahhh why does he always have to be so sweet and understanding?

I peek up at him, "So if you weren't shopping that entire time what were you doing?"

"I was getting the ring I ordered last moth and setting up the movie theater with my cousin. She's good friends with the movie theater owner."

"Oh." I lower my eyes feeling stupid. Of course he wouldn't cheat on me. Ugh how could I have been so stupid? I mean I've never seen him looking at other women and he's never acted suspicious. I guess I'm just an insecure brat... 

He tilts my head up again and peers into my eyes. "Stop beating yourself up about it. You've went through traumatic experiences of course you're going to be scared. It's my job to show you that there's nothing to fear. I'm not like the other guys. I'm not going to secretly want my ex, sleep with someone while we're dating, abandon you, or anything like that. You are mine and I am yours and that's it." He pulls me against him and feels how cold I am. "Baby you're freezing. Go take a warm shower and I'll turn up the heat." He kisses my forehead and lightly pushes me in the direction of the bathroom leaving the room to turn the furnace up.

I go into the bathroom quickly stripping and stepping in the shower turning on the showerhead and setting the water to hot. I sit under the spray and close my eyes. I hate the cold. It always messes with my head makes me more insecure. I sigh peacefully tilting my head back so the water runs through my hair like gentle fingers. The water makes it easier to think and forget. I relax and pretend Derek is the water that goes down the drain. He's gone. He can only hurt me if I let him. I miss him sometimes even though he hurt me. But that's the past and now I'm with Gabe. I smile to myself, Gabe makes me happy and warm inside. I should get out and cook dinner for him.

I climb out and dry off slipping on underwear and one of his t-shirts and go into the kitchen. What I see stops me dead in my tracks.

Author's Note

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