Can't Say I Miss You

Something I wrote based on feelings I just couldn't hold in.

When you said people told Mr.Jackson that you should be the DJ

I thought if you were then you wouldn't anytime to dance

...with me..

but I already know

that that will never happen

only in my dreams and fantasies

it was always like that

I was always left alone

by everyone

I'm might as well just stare off

thinking about things

do I love you or do I like you

is it obsession or is it infatuation

I don't know

thought you wanted a hug

but it seems like you forgot

though you do it everyday

....to other girls and guys..

why are you never with me at school

its always a question i asked myself

my friends say you're a jerk

I say yeah ,but

inside i constantly deny it

even if we were to date

its not like we talk at school

no one would know

because we were never together

always separated

alone

sometimes I wonder

do you flirt with every girl you meet

do you say nice words

smile brightly

warm hugs

telling her I love you

whispering quietly

humming a tune

Why do you treat me different from those girls?

is it because I'm not like them?

why?

why cant you hang out with me

like elementary

oh..wait..I forgot

that was years ago

if I tell you my problems

nothing will change

I want to scream and let it out

but instead I decide to hold it in

knowing that what I say might hurt you deeply

so I fake a smile and move on

make glittery eyes as bright as the sun

but you seem to never notice why?

I forgot

you weren't ever there to even talk to me

whats a girl got to do

to get the one she likes and loves the most by her side?

soon

its like she'll give up on love like before

dreaming of the day when she grows old and dies alone..on a hill..slowly withering away

what can I say

you never there with me

at school

my head full of thoughts

you were the first thought to pop out

my eyes always searching for you

its like

I just cant take my eyes off of you

even a bit of the faintest problem

I say a little

you say you want me to tell you

I say no

you give up with an okay

why cant i just say

I Miss You

Author's Note

Please excuse all the mistakes I have in it.