I am incapable of love

This isn't my life
Who is in control?
don't know, some lunatic I'm sure.
I'm breaking apart,
Losing everything that
ever meant something.

I'm losing sight of
my goals,
my dreams.
I don't know who I am anymore.

I miss the old me,
I didn't use vulgar phrases
and words.

I'm harsh,
cruel even,
to people that don't deserve
to put up with my s**t.

I noticed this when
I was too far in, to turn back,
I'm helpless.

I'm so outspoken and blunt,
I don't take into consideration
of others.
I hate myself for it everyday of my
f*****g life.

I'm losing touch with everyone,
I don't even know my "friends" anymore.
I'm so left out.

I finally found a guy who
treats me right
who nice and cares for me.
I'm so cruel and unjust
towards him.
Lance, please understand I don't know
any other way.
I
am
incapable
of
love.

Reviews

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this is so heartfelt..

[AchingAlexandra]

This is exactly how I am too o.0

[Geralyn Miller]

You clearly are capable of love; or the lack of it wouldn't bother you. You can change, perhaps not to the exact person you were before, but a wiser, older version.