year without you

It has been a
year and a half
without you,
I don't know how
I have survived
this long.

I miss you
everyday,
you never knew
how much
you meant
to me.

You meant the
world to me
I would have
done anything
to save
you.

I would like
to say
that everything
happens for a
reason
but honestly,
I don't believe
that's
true.

I want to wake up
and that
all to have been a
dream,
a terrible, terrible dream
that never ended.

I wish
I wasn't so
stupid as
to let you
go.

It's something
that I live
with
everyday,
the guilt
is unbearable.

I remember going
through your things
you had pictures of
you and me in
a drawer
in your room,
that was my
breaking point.

I cannot
help but wonder
how things would
be different.
Maybe they
would be the same,
maybe they would
be better,
maybe worse.
Who knows?

I know that
you are in a
better place
but I wish you hadn't
gone.

I love you,
always have,
always will.
Rest in peace.

Reviews

[Shin]

So very deep, deeper than most poems I've read, you project well your feelings, very well written, keep it up, it was awesome.

[Jami Nicole]

I miss him too Panda, he was awesome. :(

[Liz-z]

... Perfect. I reading your sorrow was actually more painful than I have realized... if that makes sense. Thankfully, I haven't had that feeling... But you made it sound so terrible that I don't even want to think about how I'd feel if I did feel something like this... Bravo...Bravo. It was perfect.

[Gabby]

:D

[Geralyn Miller]

Unfortunately, I know that feeling. You accurately describe it. For me, it has been longer; the only comfort I can offer you is, it does get easier. You don't , it is that the memories become more sweet than bitter.
Your poem shows good use of emotion in a controlled way; this is a good thing, it makes a more readable poem.

[David W Moore III]

very heartfelt and yes sad. touching and poignant. Thanks for sharing

[Angie Diane♥&hea..]

I think this was sad...but nicely written...I liked it a lot. Thanks for sharing.