It kills me inside.

I cannot find the strength
to delete you from my facebook.
Even though its been
close to a year and a half,
since the accident.
I can't find the strength
inside my soul.

I cannot wake up
in the morning without
you on my mind.
It kills me inside,
weakens my heart
until it breaks in two.

I cannot tell you
how much I miss you.
Now that you are gone,
I never got my chance.
That's something I'll regret
till the day I
die.

I used to dream of you
and I felt safe,
loved.
Like I truly meant something to you
But
My dreams do not contain
your presence anymore,
I'm alone,
scared.

When I need to hurt,
instead of grabbing a blade
or a lighter.
Going to your profile,
it hurts far worse than
a shallow blade cut.

I cannot tell you
all about high school
all of my new friends
that I made there.
I wish I could,
but miracles
do not exist.

I cannot tell you
that I love you,
always have and
always will.
I'm sorry I didn't tell you
'I love you'
more often

I know you always
wanted what was best for
me.
I love you
for that,

I blame myself
for not doing anything
to stop you,
I knew you had problems,
I knew you couldn't drive well,
yet I got in the car with you.

Tyson, I love you.

 

Reviews

[Angie Diane♥&hea..]

Awe this really is a tragic story...
I'm sorry this happened...
Thanks for sharing.

[Jami Nicole]

Awesome poem.

[Liz-z]

O_O so very tragic. Excellent piece you've got here! It's truly beautiful and I do hope it isn't base on life experience. So very wonderful!

"I used to dream of you...
But
My dreams do not contain
your presence anymore,"
There's something about that verse that I really like... Fantastic job indeed!

"I blame myself for not doing anything"
... Perfect.

[Inci]

beautiful write...:))

[Geralyn Miller]

Your grief is a living breathing thing and you convey it well. You have told Tyson you love him and miss him; you told him in your poem.
You cannot feel him because your pain and misery is so big and powerful. Concentrate on the good memories and you will feel him around you again. I know, see my poem, "Last Dance"

[Gabby]

omfg that was AWESOME!