I can still taste the tears upon these calm lips. Tears
shed for love that had never been and a lonely abyss that
could never be filled. Why does one's head spin with desires
of gain? Satisfaction with the present never seems to be an
acceptable option in the perception of the human mind.
Contentedness never seems to be found when one realizes one
is alone in the world. To be forced to become dependent upon
one's own self is the death of the oblivious person one once
was. Oblivion...such a blissful state of ignorance that cannot
be relived. Finding truth is not as glorified as one
imagined as the past self. An immense miscalculation that
has torn away the layers skin only to leave one's core
susceptible to this new perception of life. How long will it
take for the new layers to form and, when they do so, will
they remain? Or is this, as many a thing in this world,
simply a repetitive cycle? Do we ever truly gain or is this
in fact an illusion itself? It's quite possible that this is
our answer. One can never reach one's illusions in the harsh
desert.