Losing My FatherA Chapter by ButterflyDetails of losing her father and dealing with the abuse even more so that he died.My father had his gambling and drinking problems just as my momma did, but he was not as bad. It was my father who was at home with us while my momma stayed out late gambling and partying. It was my father who made sure we had dinner and put us to bed. He combed our hair, fed us, and walked us to school every day. However, my father went to jail from time to time, and when he did, our shield of protection went with him. When he was away, it felt like my life was over. Who was going to take care of us while she was out all night? What about the drunks that would come banging on the door late at night for a bottle of corn liquor? Who was going to protect us from them in case they knew we were there alone? All these thoughts crossed my mind,accompanied by fear and hopelessness.
It was all up to us when he was away in jail. We had to bond closer than ever before. All I did was pray for my father’s quick release so he could come home and look after us, but there came a time he spent his last days in jail. The last gambling raid, my father didn’t get away as usual. He was captured, and this time there was a warrant for his arrest. Upon his death, my mother told me he once shot a guy after getting into an argument while gambling. The man later died, and the police finally got a lead on the case that landed him in jail.
I would never see his smiling face or the warmth from his tender care again. My father, after being incarcerated for thirty years, died from a liver disease. I was forty-five at his arrest. With so many years passing while he was incarcerated and not much communication, his death didn’t affect us negatively. However, losing him still left an empty place in our hearts, but my mom, as expected, didn’t show any emotions. © 2011 Butterfly |
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1 Review Added on October 11, 2011 Last Updated on October 11, 2011 AuthorButterflyCordova, TNAboutI am a recently published author and is currently working on my second book. I have a MBA and currently work as a Project Manager. more..Writing
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