Leaving the past behind

   I walked in to the room and she was the last person i wanted to see. She hadnt seen me yet. There was to many people in the lunch for her to see me. I was praying on a higher power that she wouldnt look my way. I wanted to get my food and leave before she would notice. Today seemed to have been a busy lunch day. I looked at the schedule for what was being served all week. Of course today had to be pizza day. Everyone likes pizza. I just wanted to grab my sandwich and milk and get the hell out of here. To make it even harder for her to find me i turned my back to her. The only bad thing about that is, if she does find me i wont know. So far she hasnt come up to me so thats a plus.

    "Hey, Chris." It was so loud in the lunch room i couldnt tell if it was her. So slowly i truned around. Again praying on the higher power. As i was 1/2 way around i closed my eyes. I really didnt want to see her. If i saw her i was pretty sure i was going to start asking for her back. Be crawling on my hands and knee to get her back. Thats just how much of a power she seems to have over me. Makes me sad and i know this. "Chris its not Sara. You can open your god damn eyes." I could hear shoes in the lunch room moving all around and i could hear some girl getting mad at some guy for saying a joke about girls only being on this earth to make men food. If i was a woman i would be pretty mad about that to. "Shes not going to see you. She seems to be pretty pissed off about the whole thing."

   "Wait.. SHES pissed off about the whole thing??" I looked up at Jim's face. I guess my month was hanging open because i start to taste the smell of the lunch room in my mouth. And i have to say the lunch room wasnt really one of the best cleaned rooms in the school. Even if it should be, it isnt. "Shes the one that cheated on me with that f*****g a*****e. And so that gives her a right to be mad about the whole thing?" I couldnt look at him anymore. I closed my mouth. I didnt want to look at anyone so i just looked at the floor between my feet.

  "HEY MOVE!!" Said a guy few people behind me. I guess i was so anger i forgot i was in line for food. As i moved still kind of looking at the floor i got to the lunch lady.

   "Hey, can i have a sandwich and a milk please." I said with a small voice i didnt think she had heard me. But in a matter of secs it was infront of me.  I paid my $5.42 and walked away. I went to walk down the hallway alone but Jim was still beside me. "What else did she say?" i asked scared to know what she was telling everyone in school.

   "All ive heard is that shes pissed off that you found out and even more pissed off because you broke it off with her." he said as we walked down the green hallway. The lockers looked really drity and looked like someone had tried to paint the lockers and someone stopped them before they could do all the lockers. After Jim said what he said i looked at him. I could tell he was keeping something from me. We had been friends for over 13 years. It was pretty hard to keep alot from me now a days.

   "Theres more to this story that your not telling me." I said with a bit of anger in my voice. I wasnt anger with him. I was just kind of pissed that he could think that he could keep something from me now a days. We had stopped walking by now and i was facing him. I stopped looking at his face. I was pretty sure what he was going to tell me next was not a part i wanted to hear and is why he kept it from me in the first place. Or tired to kept it from me anyways.

    "The guy she cheated on you with didnt know she was dating someone and..." he stopped. That stopped was like he had put a knife in my heart and was slowly moving it down to break it in to two. "now ive heard there dating" he said it so softly it didnt even sound like really words to me. I dont think i could really understand what he was saying. Just two days ago i was happy and in love. Then over a email send to the whole school saying she had cheated on me with someone from a different school. I didnt say anything to Jim i just turned and walked away. I dropped my sandwich and milk and walked out of the school doors. It wasnt the fact that i was with her and now she was with someone else. It was the fact that she had lied to me and told me she would never hurt me. And here i was standing infront of the school wishing i could fly and be anywhere else but here right now. I wasnt sure where i was going to go so i started walking down the street. Not towards anywhere just picked a way to walk and walked. As i was leaving the school behind me i could feel my eyes getting watery. I knew this was a dumb reason for my eyes to be getting watery but i couldnt help myself. I had lost a friend and all my trust in woman. No matter what the nice guys always get fucked over but some s**t. And as i let that one tear fall. I stopped all the ones after. I was not going to waste all my time being sad over something that got over me in mins. So i walked to leave her behind.