Sick Mother

                Again I had to watch her walking away down that green hallway. To a door that I had no clue what was behind it. All I knew was she had to be here and I have no power over it. I wanted her to get better more then anything in the world but I knew I couldn’t help her anymore. Other people had to help her.

                “Daddy, when’s mommy coming home?” said Ross. I looked down at him and I could see the pain in his eyes from having to see her walk away again from him. The truth was I didn’t know if his mom was ever going to be coming home again.

                “I’m not sure when bud. You know mommy’s really sick and she has to stay here to get better. But I’m sure as soon as she’s better we’ll get to bring her home with us and we’ll have a real family dinner together.” I said as I put my hand on his head.

                “Can we go get candy and a slurpee too? I’m sure after being sick for so long she’ll want a slurpee. I know I would.” Ross said with a big smile on his face. I couldn’t help but smile back at him. But as I was smiling at him for being so cute and I was looking at him I couldn’t help but notice that he looked just like his mother. How clue his eyes were and how his smile just made you want to be happy.

                I didn’t want to stay at the hospital any longer. I didn’t like bring Ross here every 2 weeks to see his mom but I knew she loved him more than life itself. Seeing him was the only thing she looked forward to every day. But every time I was there I couldn’t help but feel like I was the reason she was here. I couldn’t help but feel like I was the reason she was so depressed and couldn’t stay to live her life any longer .

                “Daddy, do I get to see mommy next weekend?” Ross asked me as I was putting him in the back sit of the car.

                “No we’re not coming back for 2 weeks like always. Why would we see her next weekend?” I asked as I closed the door and started the car. I started driving out of the parking lot before he said anything to me.

                “Because its mother’s day next weekend.” He said. But he wasn’t looking at me he was looking at the floor. It looked like he was scared to ask if he could see his mother on mother’s day. I couldn’t believe I forget what day it was.

                “oh yes. Yes we’ll come back next weekend to see mom on mother’s day. Is there anything you’d like to bring her? Anything you want to make her or buy for her?” I asked as we drove down the street. We didn’t live that far from the hospital but I never wanted to walk because after seeing her I just wanted to get home and hide for the day. I never liked doing anything after seeing her because I wanted that day to be about her and nothing else. Even if we weren’t together I spend the whole day thinking about her and doing things she would have loved to do with us.

                “I’m not sure yet.” He said. Now he was looking outside the window. He always found in hard to talk about his mom because he never really knew what was going on with her.

                As soon as the car stopped Ross got out of the car. I handed him the keys to open up the door and let himself in. I just couldn’t get out of the car. Seeing her always made me happy but seeing her walk down that hallway and in to that door at the end made my heart would just break every time. Just knowing I had to take care of our son alone without her hurt just as much. After 5 mins of sitting in the car I made myself get out and walk in the house. Ross was watching tv. I didn’t really care what he was watching. Most days I would probably ask him but he knew after seeing his mom I get in a mood and you don’t bug me when I’m like this. I walked in to the bedroom and got on the bed and pulled out the 6^th Harry Potter. It was her favorite book and I always read it after seeing her. After an hr of reading I put the book down and started to fall asleep.

                 All I could dream about was waking up to Danielle in my arms and spending the whole day together in bed. Talking to her and making her smile. Make her feel the way she makes me feel. I did wake to my cell phone ringing.

                “Hello?” I asked.

                “Dave, we need to talk.” It was Danielle’s mother. The only time she calls me is when something is wrong or she’s worried.

                “what’s going on?” I really didn’t want to ask but I knew I probably had to know.

                “Its about Danielle Dave.  She…” it was like I couldn’t hear what she was saying. I knew whatever she was about to tell me wasn’t good. Because for one thing her mom was calling me and it was about Danielle. “Dave, she killed herself today.” I could hear how sad she was. I don’t think it hit her yet but it was starting to.

                “What? I just saw her a few hrs ago. I don’t understand this.” I couldn’t believe it. I was standing up now and I didn’t even remember walking away from the bed. I didn’t want to believe this. How was I going to live without her. How was Ross going to live with her.

                “She somehow got hold of a pen or something and she cut herself. Dave I don’t want to believe it to. They want us to go down and sign papers.” I don’t think I can do this. I can’t do this. I don’t want to leave this house. “I’ll see you there?”

                “Yeah, umm I’ll try.” I didn’t sound like me. It sounded like someone had taken over my body and was making me say things. She was gone. I didn’t have her here anymore. I was alone in the world. As I walked out of the room and walked in the living room I looked up at Ross and it hit me. She wasn’t really gone. She has always been with me. And she’ll always be with me, in him. I couldn’t help but smile a little. I walked over to him and gave him a hug. And said “I love you” in his ear.

Reviews

[al25]

This is really well written. Im sure a lot of people can relate to it.

[Zeitgeist Manifesto]

This story was hard to read. The sadness of it all was overwhelming.
It was a pleasant surprise to see their love live on in the end.
This is a real gem.

[Short.Nerd]

Thats so sad :(

[Cassiopia Summers]

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[Ashley.M.E]

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[Snickers]

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[nono]

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