anxiety: part 2

what anxiety feels like

they're staring at me

my hair looks awful

i look awful

i am awful

I panic

It's like there's a train on my lungs

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me,

collap

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my airways

killing me slowly.

I go home, I lock the doors and check fifteen times just to make sure

I've washed my hands 38 times today

what's another 12 more, then I'll have an even fifty 

oh my god did I lock the doors

I check again.

and again

and again.

it never stops. 

Author's Note

the format is disorganized and all over the place because my anxiety makes me disorganized and all over the place. this is to represent my mind and how it works.

Reviews

[Simon Welsh]

I like it. It's scary how many people who do feel this. We have that frozen scream that no one can hear but we all have.

[AaronFreitas]

Damn that is one interesting piece but I love the creativity. Awesome work :)

[Justin]

that was awesome :) :) :) i also have been in your shoes, i have anxiety too, the format of it is awesome, being disorganized is creative because that is how you see things, amazing job :)