suffocate

you say i suffocate you..

you do not have enough space..

the way i look at you makes you uncomfortable, suddenly after 4 years..

i keep wondering

if there is at all another reason ..

beneath the beach sand of your words 

lies, perhaps the skeleton of a prehistoric god,

dictating your actions..

is it your family you dont want to confront ?

or is it you that you are afraid of?

the you that tells me with words 

hidden in  dark recesses of the written..

acknowledging by nodding your head or by keeping quiet,

the madness of everytime i talk to you..

i am still thinking..

perhaps, suffocating means taking one's breath away?

is that a sign of love or is it hate's pristine form..

you said it wouldnt be difficult to forget you 

it isnt..

 i being, what i am..

nowadays i sleep faster than usual..

but everytime , 

 i wake up in the middle of the night

alone in the bed...

and i am afraid..

i dont understand..

that you have left me..

my brain, then is numb to invent reasons

 or placate prehistoric gods ..

Reviews

[paul]

really stunning poetry

the second stanza, cracked my brain open. in a good way.

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. haha ! ... well, even though i'm technically a muslim and spiritually a sufi ... and multi religious in many ways ... i don't leave things to god or chance ... in fact ... as of 4 am this morning ... i applied "god helps those who help themselves" to my situation and found a lateral solution ... :) ...

[vivekanand]

true serah, sometimes we give up.. now it is for the mountains to move for muhammed

[.]

. beautiful and poignant ... and very lovingly written ... sometimes our loved ones don't "get" our sensitivity or our sensibility ... it's tough ... and it takes mountains to even attempt a change in perception ...