Walk

Its funny sometimes to see dat u kno u r messed up in lyf and still u smile back at. It ... Some do late ... Some keep on ... But we all do at some point . Coz ders one thing common in us .. We get tired of being sad .

Once i was walkinnn on road... I saw an average father and son(5-7) . Probably gone for evening outinn . I wont say i m keen observer or some deepshit analyst or somethinnn but it just instantly got me The magnitude of difference in walkinn diwn a road ... The kid beatiful , clean in white shirt and a short . Wen i was a kid we used to say 'nikkers'.. was walkinn as if ... As if we hav got sunny leon posters on both sides of road . He was so curious , happy , one hand clutched wid father and other in mouth . I cud calculate his eyes wer attendinn all damn objects around . He looked amazed all the tym and der on the side inventor of sperm dat lead to him walked with head down he was just walkinn at a pace mind occupied wid thing probably like tax planninn , family planning, bills etc etc ... I associated wid myself dats where i started and dats where its gonna end ... why it gets borinn , it gets or we make it , or we let it to get borinnn .. Questions jumped . I wasnt a kid anymore but always had a thing of lukinn at lifes outside my circles .. Circles are bad , they might fake fake u abt lyf , outside its true , all brutality of the world everthinn is so open . This was One of the the best things which made me realize i better put my a*s to somethinn or ... Back to father son ,,, it wasnn jus walkinnn dat occupied my mind so much to write abt it ... It was abt u take two ideal individuals of their age and see how differently they luk at world ... And how growinn up means its gonna suck . Is "worryinn abt" necessary . He was gud man . A gud father , wid gud quality sperm products , well dressed , lukd above average financially . With the tee on kid i wud say he was kind as a father too ( money wise ;) ) and gud enough to spend some tym wid his child but why he wasnt he happy ,, i felt lyk goinn up der and tell him cant u jus be happyabt it . U ur beautiful son . Who probably ll be hittinn chicks in high school ( yaa kid was too cute ). . Ur finances , ur lyf , its all perfect , everthinnn we luk for in a stable lyf , why are u wid ur head down . Its appreciable u holdinn his hand in protection , cant u just be wid him to smile , to be stupid , is it a duty , f**k u ,,, sorry f**k me ,, i kno who i was tokinnn to ... I kno who was to be fucked .. U go on old man ... And well done wid ur lyf ... This was a one of the thousand mental discussions dat happens b/w the fucked up me and me who thinks "ok lets try we wont mess up again "
I smile back at myself . Der wasn much difference btwn me and kid he was kiddish openly n me mentally ... I didn really grow up (do we ?) But just learned how to behave in public and started worryinnn abt thinngs called career , lyf , love

Author's Note

My baby step in writinn ... Be shameless in criticising . Ignore grammer etc