My womb

Being a mother has it's pressing moments...

From the time i pushed the sack that broke and a bright emerging head popped out, it didn't pop it squeezed and pushed through the walls that were tight and into the world it came without warning though pain..

The smell of mother on your skin..

Knowing inside me the awe of how could you fit in there my tummy..

Smiles..

From the kicks and letting me know.. Mummy i'm here. A bright becon of light and the sometimes harsh kicks.

With a quick pat to the bottom, by the midwife, you cry and let me know yes you are here with joy..

Permit me the time to bond and create the lifeforce i alway's wanted it to be..

You have my hair maybe my nose and my mouth.

Your fathers long limbs' and god you may have a penis like him..or a vagina that looks like mine. You are my creation and your dad's.

Made in the heat of love or either a quick heat of lust in the heated moment where two bodies collide in sweat and fluids...

Hence  you came from fluids also to be born from the fluids.

Being a mother has it's pressing times, before you know it i'm up all hours of the night to fight the running fever. Despite what's going on you manage to come to mum always or dad and let us know that something is not quite right.

It's the way of a child like when i cuddled up to my own, cooing and wanting demanding.

Your world is a world of no cares only innocent love for thyself. It's not till older you may learn different things.

Time rolls on like nobody's business.

Everything is heightened and very real to a child. Little drama's seems big issues. It's up to me to help you to realise that sometimes it is not as big as it seems.. Though even as we grow older we sometimes tend to make mountains out of molehills.

" Mummy, Close the window my nose might blow of". I still remember those moments that made me chuckle in fits of laughter.

Being a mother has it's pressing times. Being a mother on her own has it's pressing times. Sometimes and especially when your're not comprehending to the words i may say i sometimes just want to crawl up and say i'm on my way.

However i make it home always and am always there to try to lighten the way.

If there's anything that a mother hopes and aspirates it's for the best for her children, whatever that may be.

Sometimes the world wants to close and i just want to cry. Though it is your tears i hear till i am alone and in my own peace that i can be permitted just to let go of some of that angst to.

We are all just growing and learning to grow and teaching as we may go. Of the good things in this lifetime and how to get through the bad times too.

My elders always said "Follow your Heart". How sound advice and one peice of advice i wil always give to my children willing and freely.

Some people say it's the way of today though i believe that it is not. It is more so the way that we raise and maybe as it goes we are not all perfect. We to are born so innocent to the world though we are flawed and marred by the ways of the world.. Moulded by Society. If we have good upbringing therefore we thrive like a flower to sunshine.

Oh child moulded in my womb...

" I LOVE YOU...AND I AM JUST LEARNING TOO"..

  "LIKE FIRST I TAKE LITTLE STEPS.. JUST LIKE YOU"

"I TRY TO MAKE AN IMPACT ON THE WORLD, JUST LIKE YOU"

"SOMETIMES I AM AFFECTED BY THINGS IN THIS LIFE, JUST LIKE YOU"

"I FEEL LIKE SOMETIMES I WANT TO RUN AND HIDE, JUST LIKE YOU"

"I LOVE YOU, JUST LIKE YOU LOVE ME"

'"I AM HERE TO LOVE YOU SO THAT YOU MAY LEARN WHAT IT IS TO STRIVE, FULFILL, LEARN AND LOVE JUST LIKE ME"

"YOU HAVE EYES AND A NOSE AND A BODY, JUST LIKE ME"

"I LOVE YOU JUST LIKE YOU LOVE ME"

"IF THERE IS ONE THING THAT I WANT FOR YOU IS TO HAVE THE BEST AND I KNOW IF THERE WAS ONE THING THAT YOU WANTED FOR ME, IT WOULD BE TO HAVE THE BEST JUST LIKE I WANT FOR YOU"

"I LOVE YOU MY CHILDREN JUST TO BE IS NOT JUST TO BE THOUGH IT IS EVERYTHING TO YOU AND TO ME".