the inner hunger

finding strength in jealous and envy. Clarification of emotions and thoughts.

Words slipping out
eyes reading every letter
happy you are, happy she is
memories slither around on its smooth stomach
hissing, calling for my attention
that fork tongue
the metal surrounding your lips
I already knew what it was
hungry for attention
hungry to be free
hungry for praising
hungry for some affection
Starving, unfathomable hunger
undying thirst
it isn't your love I crave
it is your life
my crush of you
its my hungry strive to be you
to be more than you
break free of my own chains
that hold me back
fear wrapped around logic
weights on my shoulder and ankles
you are what I strive for
clouded thoughts lead me to think I want you
to have your attention, love, sweet whispers
but you are nothing but a tease
you are not want I want
you are my ideal me
I want out
let loose
the cold silky skin wrapping tightly around me
the warm embrace
my envy feeding my evil sin
one day I will eat it whole
it will be over
and my hunger will be fed
my thirst quenched
your life would no longer appeal to  me
and soon enough
you will envy me.