Where would it end?

a sort of follow up of " Persistently Jealous"

covered in soft fabric
curled to the side

background noise
voices
beats of music
my changing lullaby
all to keep me in steady trance

dancing in my dreams
all which i can usually never remember
yet this night was all different

surrounded in cool darkness, a surrounding that does not feel strange
passing through the thresh hold with an excited smile
a planned meeting between the two of us
walk around the building chatting
atmosphere filled with jokes and laughter
friendly and comfortable like normal friends

my eyes staring at my current obsession
the metal surrounding the bottom lip
snake bites, two lower lip piercings
my lips part to ask
"How are they, do they get in the way, what does it feel like?"

Curious looking into your eyes
I see this playful spark in the eyes and things suddenly change
jokes had ended, the air had changed
our lips meet the dream jumps to another scene
an awkward moment of silence, covered with a force cough
enter another female, my chance to slip out casually
a wave of a hand to say my goodbyes
making things casual again, ignoring the moment before

A dark silent drive down the streets
soothe my mind from the images of the kiss before
raise the radio music
the event was nothing, random emotions
it meant nothing
reach my location of a home
only to be scared with a thud on my car window

there you are once again
smiling and laughing casually as you do
confused for a moment before we head up the elevator again
my heart races but do not bring up the event from before
then I wake

stirred awake from my dream
the emotions are still there
excited, anxious, heart a flutter
tips of my fingertips touching my lip


it was all a dream, never have we kissed
we had just met not so long ago
still complete strangers  to one another

this was a dream
something that i enjoyed till all of reality had hit me
sweet and sour of a dream

what is it that I want?
am i burning with curiosity that i yearn for your attention
has my slight interest in you become a crush
although your eyes have interest in another
I became a ghost that you do not see
we do not talk like friends

Was this dream acting my crush
was it lust
was it lead by my obsession for lip piercings?
nothing makes sense

all i could want was to return to my sleep
in hopes to start where I left off in my dream
just to find out where it all ends

because that was just an exciting kiss
but I feel my subconscious will reveal to me
this emotions that I see as complex
I am sure there are simple
I want to overcome this silly emotion of liking to you
rid this annoying emotion of jealousy which circles around you