Angry

When you run out of excuses.

                  ANGRY

 

I made excuses for you at every turn,

And polished and pasted,

To make your sins seem less than,

The monumental treachery that they were.

 

I am so angry,

That you keep proving to me,

Just what you really are,

And I have run out of excuses.

 

It is amazing that you cannot see,

The way you tear me apart,

The way I still yearn to be near you,

Even bleeding and broken beyond repair.

 

To you I am the unreasonable one,

And you have erred not at all,

I am screaming so loud because I need you to understand,

That I have no justification for you.

  

And I give up,

You will never change into the you,

That I believed you were,

And I have run out of reasons to remain at your side.

Author's Note

Still just thinking.

Reviews

[MBUYISA]

Thanks for sharing Vidya.
I enjoy reading powerful poems like this.

This is my favourite stanza........

"I made excuses for you at every turn,

And polished and pasted,

To make your sins seem less than,

The monumental treachery that they were."

Sometimes we get so disappointed in people we love and trust.
To a point where even the excuses we make for them do not make sense anymore.

I know your situation Vidya

Thanks again for sharing this beautiful piece

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you Mbuyisa .Your words are the very truth :)

[jacob erin-cilberto]

this is potent...we just can't excuse someone into being what we hope they are...
the longer we are with them, we find out what's under the surface...and so often it is disappointing.

a very moving write...a one-sided love...

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you so much Jacob for your always kind and encouraging words that mean so much :)

[Lyn Anderson]

A dramatic and powerful piece. When thoughts come from a place of passion, sorrow, etc., they shine brightly, even if that shines a light on times of sadness. What an amazing write.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you Kit Kat,Yes the sadder we are the better our poetry ,sucks that it does lol

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Wow this is how I felt a few hours ago! Amazing job my dear friend:))))))))))))))))))

[Vidya Bacchus]

Aww glad to see you don't feel like this anymore. Thank you Jon :)

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Yes its is awesome to feel great:) I couldn't do it without great friends here and awesome writes to for fill the day:)))))))))))))))) Welcome Vidya:)

[Marie]

Someone got fed up and faced the truth. The anger is a good thing.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Yes someone did. It was bound to happen sooner or later.Thank you Marie :)

[ron]

No one should do that to anyone. This is a sad but true poem for some. Great write Vidya.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you buddy. Very true words :)

[Madalyn Beck]

Damn. You have rendered me speechless. The words you have written here just reached into my soul. Very real, very emotional speaking of the intense agony and pain. The one you want to heal you is the one who is slowly breaking you. I'm going through something very similar. Sister in a parallel universe, perhaps? xo :)

[Vidya Bacchus]

Perhaps we are and that would be a compliment my friend.Thank you very much :)

[Anand Sehgal]

A write that speaks of intense agony. very emotive and spoke directly to me . simple yet touching narration.
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[Vidya Bacchus]

Hey Anand thank you very much.I hope you are good :)

[Anand Sehgal]

doing okay dear :) how are you doing?

[Vidya Bacchus]

I am great, nice to hear you are good.Keep on keeping on my friend :)

[A. Amos]

This is beautiful and lovely wrote, many will relate with your work

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you very much AA.Always glad for your kind words :)

[Michael Stevens]

An excellent, very powerful poem Vidya; I sure hope things improve for you; it's always a shock when you think you know someone, and it turns out you were wrong.

[Vidya Bacchus]

True very true Mikey. Maybe we expect too much .Thank you very much :)

[Michael Stevens]

I can't tell you how often people have let me down; I CAN tell you how often I've done the letting; lots!

[Vidya Bacchus]

Ha yes I hear you my friend

[Michael Stevens]

By lots, I mean 472,987, give or take 27!

[Vidya Bacchus]

But who's keeping score right lol

[Michael Stevens]

Right; life is NOT a game!

[Vidya Bacchus]

It's not!!!!.How did I not know this?

[Michael Stevens]

Well, if it's a game, I'm sucking badly!

[Vidya Bacchus]

Lol practice Mikey .I keep saying that practice is the key but do you listen to me?I think not!!!

[Michael Stevens]

Practice makes perfect----sense, for someone else; could that attitude be the problem?

[Vidya Bacchus]

Huh you know now that you mention it.......

[Michael Stevens]

What? Well s**t!

[Vidya Bacchus]

What ,you can say it but I can't agree ?

[Michael Stevens]

No, I was just upset at myself for once again being so damned correct; I HATE that about myself!

[Vidya Bacchus]

I understand its like a super freaky power.You are like an Xman in reverse lol

[Michael Stevens]

You can say I'm freaky again; but please don't!

[Vidya Bacchus]

Ha at least you admit it lol

[Michael Stevens]

Yeah, my therapist thinks I'm making REAL progress!

[Vidya Bacchus]

That right there is why they call them "quacks" lol

[Michael Stevens]

Oh, I thought it was because they have webbed feet, like a duck; then again, that might just be mine; OR, it's because of their large 'bill'; eh, ha, ha!

[Vidya Bacchus]

Haha now I am so confused.I should see a quack and ask them lol

[Michael Stevens]

Take 2 or 5 beers, and forget about it; you don't need some overpriced 'quack'!

[Vidya Bacchus]

Cool stick .I am going to spend all my quack money on beers and then everything will become clear.

[Michael Stevens]

I can't promise everything will become clearer; in fact, if you drink close to the 5 range, probably quite the opposite, but you'll be so blitzed, you won't give a s**t!

[Vidya Bacchus]

Right on why does that sound logical lol

[Michael Stevens]

Because I'm a wise man? Naw, that can't be it; I just don't know!

[Vidya Bacchus]

Now you are so confused yes?

[Michael Stevens]

Yeah it must be something like that; I don't know; I'm going to lie down!

[Vidya Bacchus]

Haha poor Mikey made too much sense and can't handle it lol

[Michael Stevens]

How do I know it makes sense; there's only your word for it; ha, you're TRYING to mess me up!

[Vidya Bacchus]

Oh right me saying you make sense has no credibility at all lol

[Michael Stevens]

Now you're just getting mean because I'm such an easy target! Wait...

[Vidya Bacchus]

You do realize you are the only one being mean to u at this present moment lol

[Michael Stevens]

Yeah, you're correct; how about if I put myself down? "Who in the Hell do I think I am, anyway? Look at me, a throbbing blue-veiner; a walking (not well!), talking (not well!) Tele-Tubeie!"

[Vidya Bacchus]

Hahaha you sure do know how to put yourself in your place lol.Mikey stop being mean to yourself or else you are so grounded!!!!

[Michael Stevens]

It's just that putting myself down is so EASY!

[Vidya Bacchus]

That is it "go to your room right now!!!!"

[Michael Stevens]

Ha, the joke's on you; I'm already IN my room!

[Vidya Bacchus]

Oh well go to your kitchen !!!!

[Michael Stevens]

Nooo! Well, on second thought, I can grab a sandwich; I'm kinda hungry anyway, so...

[Vidya Bacchus]

Well alright then!!!

[Michael Stevens]

I'd come up with a smart a*s reply, but I now all I can think of is a big-a*s sliced beef sandwich!

[Vidya Bacchus]

Dude it is against my religion to eat beef and by association I forbid you too!!!!!

[Michael Stevens]

What religion is that? "trans enduhbeereism?" eh, ha, ha!

[Vidya Bacchus]

Shut up that is not a thing lol

[Michael Stevens]

May lightning strike me if I'm lyi---zzzzzzzzzzz!

[Vidya Bacchus]

You so deserved that .You religion maker upper :)

[Michael Stevens]

Ha, ha, bet you thought I was a goner, huh?

[Vidya Bacchus]

You have 9 lives stick?

[Michael Stevens]

Yep, you can't keep a good stick down; err--wait...

[Vidya Bacchus]

Umm yes they have drugs for that now lol