Terrified Ramblings

It must be hard for someone who is set in their ways to have to change.

                                   Terrified Ramblings

 

 

You came so suddenly,

You completely blindsided me,

Leaving me confused and unsure,

Of a reality I believed was written in stone,

A person who has everything in its place ,

Is suddenly overcome by the clutter of your arrival.

 

I could ignore you,

But you are already etched into my memory,

And I am so scared ,

Of feeling an emotion that has no name or distinction,

I am so angry at you,

For scaling my walls ,

They were up for a reason.

 

I am terrified because you don't fit,

And yet you do,

I don't accept what you offer,

I don't accept a relationship that is undefined ,

My heart pounds a punishing rhythm,

Merging with the pace set by yours.

 

Friend or foe ,lover or friend ,

I need to place you in a niche ,

Neatly arranged and understood,

But you refuse to fit,

So I am confused,

Belong where I put you ,

Because this is the only way my mind can deal with you.

 

 

 

     vidya

　

Author's Note

Change is hard for some people.What would they feel if suddenly the pieces didn't fit the way the should.

Reviews

[Jewel Chanda]

what to say?
Well written! Nice Job! Excellent work!
Aha; feeling which is undefined after reading it for several times.... your words are too strong and organised that they don require any review from me... this is awesome ... simply awesome.. what I liked most is the strength of your version, the force it has...too gooood.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you so much Jewel your words humble me :)

[Jewel Chanda]

You r welcome :)

[Sasha]

oh my gosh !
This is exactly how I feel right now ! As if you are describing my story!!
I am astonished !!

This is amazing!!

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you Sasha I am glad that it struck a chord with you :)

[Sasha]

oh my gosh .. big time ! Thank you !

[Master K-tops]

But you are already etched into my memory,

And I am so scared ,

Of feeling an emotion that has no name or distinction,

i really enjoyed this work. it is interesting and easy to read. I've missed reading your poems.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Hello Master I have missed you my friend.Hope all is well with you.Thank you so very much :)

[MAC]

and the pieces never do seem to fit, I so dislike puzzles! Vidya, another brilliant release of emotions and words.

[Vidya Bacchus]

True that Mark.Thank you :)

[Penny]

You accept your life with all the problems and make it your utopia and then a part of your past makes way into your present and all of a sudden the meaning of perfection changes. You are offered better than you have right now, still you cannot accept it, you cannot integrate in your lifestyle. Very nice poem Vidya. Thanks for sharing

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you Penny for reading and giving me this lovely review :)

[Penny]

My pleasure.

[Sanober]

Your ramblings make perfect sense.... such a deeply expressive and powerful write. i can relate to it in so many ways....you've put into words something that was heavy inside my heart. Excellent work here, loved it.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you so much Sanober .I am glad that this made sense to you :)

[BlackRose]

Wow, what can I say to this, but phenomenal! Everyone has been here, whether it be friend or lover. No review changes required here. You are a great writer, just write like this with such emotions, strength if need be and thinking outside the box alot and you will do and be super at your writes. Glad I read this one. :o)

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you Rose your words are so very kind and much appreciated .I admire you so much as a writer and friend hunny :)

[BlackRose]

Why thank you so so much my friend. Mean a whole lot to me reading this from you. Got me speechless. :o) You're so very welcome. I know well written or typed piece when I read it. :o)

[Vidya Bacchus]

You are welcome and thank you again :)

[kublakhan27]

I am one of those people for whom change is hard, for a number of reasons, mostly beyond my control or at least that's what I tell myself. I wholeheartedly relate to your words and your voice, not just here but in your writing across the board. A poignant and heartfelt piece...well done Vidya :)

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you very much KK, change is hard but sometimes a necessity :)

[Shirlena]

Yep, I get this one...life throws so many challenges at us and we have to find out way through them but where there is a will honey, there is a way. I spend most of my life moving one problem out of the way just to make room for the next :). Excellent, excellent write Mistress Vidya :).

[Vidya Bacchus]

Oh thank you so much my very sweet friend :)

[Deuces]

I think this is so relative to so many people. Love/lust can blindside someone and be such a double-edged sword. Having relationships that are not defined can be troubling to so many and this piece expresses that feeling so well.

My heart pounds a punishing rhythm,
Merging with the pace set by yours.

That line stuck out to me the most. As much as you're internally fighting this "intruder", your soul is unconsciously/inevitably meshing with this new being. It's a love/hate relationship.

I'll be back for more. Great work.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Wow thank you so much G.You have understood well my words .I am most appreciative for your kindness :)

[emmajoy]

Wonderfully written thoughts, emotions and wonderings. It's as if somehow you're summing up after feeling emotional evidence.. you want that person but .. why, how, where, what.. ! Your poem is near wistful, gently flows but always that doubt, maybe, even fear. Perhaps thinking and wanting too much can be a killer?

Nother thought: i wonder why so-called bright people need to fit other folk into categories or whatevers. Isn't everyone unique, doesn't that mean something anymore? Love is.. dislike is.. race and creed is.. left or right is.. worthy if it all makes for something precious.

[Vidya Bacchus]

It is the nature of the human condition to categorize and organize ,we need to open our mind I guess and realize that things don't always have to be a certain way.Thank you Emma Joy for your awesome review.They are always so much appreciated.Have a wonderful Friday hunny :)