Reckless Turmoil

Having to realize your shortcomings .

               Reckless Turmoil     
I need no enemy to fell me,
For the only hand at my throat is my own,
I am my nemesis in every disguise,
I never recognize what I love until I cast it away,
And my heart realizes it aches,
For what was....

 

I took you for granted because,
There was never a time,
Your breath didn't merge with mine,
So I didn't know how that would be,
Until you were gone and my heart splintered,
And shattered into a million shards.

 

I would give it all up,
Every reckless show of defiance,
To hold you once more,
You were my solace,
Even when I thought,
I was a law unto myself.

I needed a harbour,
To shelter me from the storm,
That rages in my soul,
Forever violent,never dormant.
Consuming me in its ferocity,
I needed you to temper me.

But I didn't know and ran you to the ground,
Burying you in my turmoil,
Always you were there to pull me from the abyss,
I turned a blind eye to your sacrifices,
Your tears of blood shed in my name,
But now you are gone.

 

And I feel what you felt,
Caught up in a whirlwind of despair,
Witness to the destruction I wreaked,
Sired by my demons that ride me,
Like a wild stallion unleashed,
Stampeding and destroying all in my path.

 

Author's Note

Please be kind.

Reviews

[Rocans]

Great poem, the stanzas literally just got better and better, until it culminated in an excellently written final stanza, enjoyed this thoroughly.
Caught up in a whirlwind of despair,
Witness to the destruction I wreaked,
Sired by my demons that ride me,
Like a wild stallion unleashed,

Those line were epic to me.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you very much.

[Frieda P]

I see I'm not the only one that beats the heck out of myself. Wild stallions unleashed, that's some wicked despair hon. Love this one Vidya! Top shelf toot sweet...........

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you Freida.I struggle with the days when I feel like this.Your words as ever make me smile :)

[Frieda P]

I know, they suck, ha, thank you...and you're welcome :-)

[Vidya Bacchus]

They indeed do suck like vampires lol

[Frieda P]

Worse, at least you can slay those lol

[Vidya Bacchus]

You have a point there hahah

[Lily Mae]

This is an amazing write. So much inner reflection and yet the want and need to be stopped and saved by love. I Think you have penned these emotions very well..xo

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you so much Lily Mae :)