Reckless Turmoil

Having to realize your shortcomings .

               Reckless Turmoil     
I need no enemy to fell me,
For the only hand at my throat is my own,
I am my nemesis in every disguise,
I never recognize what I love until I cast it away,
And my heart realizes it aches,
For what was....

 

I took you for granted because,
There was never a time,
Your breath didn't merge with mine,
So I didn't know how that would be,
Until you were gone and my heart splintered,
And shattered into a million shards.

 

I would give it all up,
Every reckless show of defiance,
To hold you once more,
You were my solace,
Even when I thought,
I was a law unto myself.

I needed a harbour,
To shelter me from the storm,
That rages in my soul,
Forever violent,never dormant.
Consuming me in its ferocity,
I needed you to temper me.

But I didn't know and ran you to the ground,
Burying you in my turmoil,
Always you were there to pull me from the abyss,
I turned a blind eye to your sacrifices,
Your tears of blood shed in my name,
But now you are gone.

 

And I feel what you felt,
Caught up in a whirlwind of despair,
Witness to the destruction I wreaked,
Sired by my demons that ride me,
Like a wild stallion unleashed,
Stampeding and destroying all in my path.

 

Author's Note

Please be kind.

Reviews

[Rocans]

Great poem, the stanzas literally just got better and better, until it culminated in an excellently written final stanza, enjoyed this thoroughly.
Caught up in a whirlwind of despair,
Witness to the destruction I wreaked,
Sired by my demons that ride me,
Like a wild stallion unleashed,

Those line were epic to me.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you very much.

[Shaquana Adams]

Sired by my demons that ride me,
Like a wild stallion unleashed,
Stampeding and destroying all in my path.

Really loved this poem. If anything, I would add some fire imagery to these last lines because while reading it I imagined the horse trailing fire. The words "destruction" and "demons" probably made me think that. Great job! :)

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you my friend ,duly noted :)

[paddy d daly]

Powerful is the best word I can think of to describe this, you have a true talent, I hope it is not driven by
despair, that would be too sad.

[Vidya Bacchus]

For some reason most of my writing comes from a dark place.Mostly though I am a happy person .Thank you Paddy your words mean a lot :)

[paddy d daly]

thank you, sometimes i find it easier to write from a dark place too.

[Vidya Bacchus]

........................:)

[luvingu01]

I luv this one.
I love the two words harbor and defiance. It is simply construed

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you very much :)

[emmajoy]

Life's full of doubts, most of all our own, and here, oh my.. here, you've gone across the spectrum.. the doubts, the self,hating in a way, a sadness of actions which you acknowledge with hand on crumbling heart. Surely IF there was a special precious togetherness, it could just return .. surely have the lover read this.. and sigh. Emotional writing, finely phrased.. gently in sadness.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you Emma Joy for this awesome review :)

[emmajoy]

you're welcome ..

[David Scott]

This shows maturity. How many of us need to learn this lesson of self honesty? Perhaps every living soul...
I like how you did not put yourself down for bash you personhood. It is OK to admit our failings, just dwell on your positive attributes.

[Vidya Bacchus]

This is so true.We sometimes feel ourselves wrecking everything good in our lives because we feel as if we are not good enough or deserve happiness.Thank you for your most insightful words.

[Jack...]

Vidya, this is so sad. We don't know what we have until it's gone. Very well written but such a sad ending.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you dear Jack.Sometimes life is sad.Your words however always make me happy:)

[Daniel Sala]

As ever, a great choice of words to express your ideas with clarity.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you daniel your words always make me happy :)

[A]

This is amazingly perfect. Every time I read your poems I feel astonished! You're ability to transform your powerful emotions into great pieces of art...! wow! Bravo! Keep sharing your beauty!

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you Anabela your words made me smile.Your review is much appreciated.

[A]

:) you’re always welcome!

[L4rn13]

Tremendous emotions are depicted withing this magnificant piece! Astounding! I love the words you have used and the structure allows it all to flow beautifully. The bold emotions allow the reader to empathise massively and the continual mention of self inflicted loneliness causes the feeling of empathy to strengthen. A truely amazing piece! I adore this!

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you so very much for your kindness it is most appreciated.