A story.

this is not meant to be understood. this is not a poem that supposed to make any sense or for you to read. this poem is for me to get my past out of my head and into words for the last time.

Dear autumn green eyed girl.

I want to hate you,
I truly do want to.
To be able to say,

(F**k you.)

I never loved you.
It was just lust.

But for my own dignity,
I will keep the last word
silent ...

I'm not afraid.
To live and breathe once more.
Even if, Regrets cut through
my dreams. Your actions
have made me breathe,
emptiness.

She filled the hole.

You used to have such control.
I would come running,
with one little pull.

With everyday that goes by,
I try and breathe again.
Inhaling once more, but i have felt
this feeling, 97 times before.

I see you,
and i suffocate.
Drown in this heartache.
Burn me, so i don't feel anymore.

I waited all year for that day.

In all my ignorance,
hating all of my innocence..
I sung a three worded lullaby.

I never let you answer.
I Kissed you salaciously,
until you kissed me back.

The next few weeks would become the worst and best of my life.

Affection has its high.
Walking home so proud of myself.
Waited all year to do that.
Building up the courage,
She said yes with her lips.

Those days in the park,
the time we danced under a tree,
You showed me your lust.
Giving me all of your trust.

Your Back to the fence.
Loving every minute of it.
My curious finger tips explored,
while your eyes told me you only wanted.
more.

Standing still for but a moment breathless,
swaying to the dragging headphones.
Irony is a b***h.
lyrics singing this love cant stay.             (Shout Out Louds-Very Loud



Life seemed to stop.
Everything was worthless.
When you opened and closed the door.

When nothing becomes everything,
when emptiness consumes you,
You remember what used to be.
When things were easier...

Just another story to never be told.

Author's Note

i hope that made any sense to you. i started from the begining and kept writing till i didnt need to get anything els out.

Reviews

[Angie Diane♥&hea..]

I think this makes sense. This was a nice write. A lot of people go on lust and everything. It's not always love, but you will find someone that will truly love you for you. Not just because you have good looks and probably a nice smile. Probably because you have abs and everything else. I think it will come for you. Keep your head up and your ears open. Thanks for sharing. :)

[Jennika has a short att..]

I think I have a feel as to what you're potraying(sp?) and if I'm right, the whole wantin to bang instead of all that mushy crap ppl out in Hollywood define as love, then that's exactly why I don't date. Love the poem(:

[Solitary Dreamer]

Well I kinda understood it and srota didn't didn't but it's obvious to me that there is some emotion in this poem. great job:)

[*Evelen*]

lol it made sense. This was a very good poem. I completely agree with Selene. Well done.

[Lucy Joan]

Awesome emotions flowing from this poem. The structure influenced the tone as well, making it almost like a secretive letter to the girl. I agree, the order of the story was a bit confusing. What I got from it is that the love of the boy was merely lust-driven, but the thoughts and emotions you implied intended for something deeper that I guess he didn't really realize until she left him. (Er, I hope that's close..)
Great poem, nonetheless! You sort of gave off a lonely feel to it, but it was expressed well.

[D.L.G.]

yeah that made alot of since.....i liked it!