How do I explain

How do I tell you that I do not believe this is meant to be.
How do I explain that I think this is wrong.
That although I am brought warmth from your touch, I am also brought a feeling of emptiness.
I cannot speak to you the way I ought to.
I am uncomfortable in my own skin.
Constantly trying to prove that I am worthy of your presence.
I should not feel less than human around the one who claims they love me.
Whatever happened to feeling whole.
Whatever happened to feeling that I could become connected to someone in more than a physical way.
More than a mere mental connection.
Whatever happened to our spirits aligning and becoming one with each other.
Our breath intertwining and becoming connected.
How do I tell you that this only reaches the surface for me.
How do I tell you that I don't think this is right.
That I feel obnoxiously stuck.
With the fear of hurting you and not making you understand that this isn't right.
That we don't belong together.
How do I explain.