Fathers

I m trying to go my way but it is difficult when depressed
I feel lonely in this world, feel pain in my chest

My body is pulling me down and my legs can’t carry my weight no more
feet don’t fail me now - take another step - c’mon at least one more

Every step is pain like I’m walking on burning lava
I’m breaking down on my knees and look up to father

But the heaven is dark and covered with big black clouds
I m wondering if he is even up there but i have my doubts …

What father would leave his children alone in time of need
protecting his kids isn’t this a fathers supposed deed?

But he just watches while we kill each other for his respect
our family bond and peace destroyed by his neglect

still,  we r all connected through the same desire
we all wish for a father we can look up to and admire

No matter if on earth or up in the sky that’s not the point
either way I guess it is in fathers nature to disappoint

And even though the chances are slim
sometimes I’m scared that I’ll become just like him

and that I’ll miss my kids first step , word or school day
miss to give advice when he leaves the old behind and goes a new way

I hope I’ll be able to break the curse of men and be a father to my child
I guess I have to thank my father --- in the end he thought me wrong from right

 

Author's Note

my first poem in English, so please be gentle. anyways let me know what u think...