i once thought you were more beautiful than me
more special
more incredible
incredibly
it is not what it seems to be.
as we gaze at each other
through half-hazy eyes,
i realize
it is the broken who need the healing
the old who need the breathing
the eyes who need the seeing
and i could never touch the sky
without the ladder of your eyes
because the ceiling, for me,
was no consolation prize
so we trace each other's arms
with our fingertips,
reducing ourselves down to
edges and angles
and curves in lines on paper
and i realize
we are so
tiny
and we were
made
the
same.
and i am good enough for you
but it's our choices that pull us through
and so you didn't choose me
but i wouldn't disagree.
so i'll change my name
and leave this place
and live among the clouds.
because up there,
no one cares
if my silence is so loud.