Today's Letter is You

For a contest.

November 22, 2009 / 1:51 am

Dear You,
     I lie awake most nights.
Wondering a million and one
Things. Never having the
Nerve to ask. Toss and turn.
Switch on the tv, the laptop,
The music. Sigh. I think about
Where life is going, where I
Have been, where you will
Be. I worry. I find hours
Passing by staring at reruns.
I write a half-a*s poem
In ambiguous language
Trying my hardest to be
Clever. Task incomplete.
Memories flood my mind,
For a moment I am 16 again
Feeling like eventually the
World will open to me. It
Still hasn't. I get angry at
Nothing and go on the war
Path against myself. You're
Ugly, you're fat, nobody loves
You, Val. Give up. Its not
Worth putting yourself out
There, Val. Sleep eventually
Finds me and I think of you.

Reviews

[E. A. Fielder]

Most of the time I hate it when poems are too direct but I totally can connect with you on this subject. Especially lately. 21 and you feel like you're running in place so you try to write about it, listen to music that defines your mood only to find that you still can't sleep. Then after your mind wears you out you finally think of something that makes you happy and you can finally sleep.

[Legion]

Love that title. Definetely could use that life manual though. As for the world opening up, sometimes we are looking out the wrong window or door when it does. Step outside the text and live the letter.

[Satellite Heart]

wow. THat was AMazInG :/ i can totally relate. THanks for sharing!

[cest la vie]

we see ourselves like none other.
remember what i told you earlier, Jazzy